No recs but you lot been busy (me 2 but 4 days off. Hoping to reorganize but freezing rain is making travel impossible. Seriously I only have 5 notes, but well, been busy. Went to Tucson to see pdoc. He was all "yeah yeah I am on vacation send in your own mail order crap." I had it ALL organized with a few "one week" prescriptions so ALL my meds could come together but I carefully sent in the 1 week ones ALSO and ALSO was not counting on them NOT being faxed. I should have done it FOR him.
So god only knows. Saw my "new" PCP who is an "internist" I was hoping he would just LEAVE my thyroid alone but I overheard his comments to his medical assistant, so I was like "Well, why don't we start with the thyroid?" Hew was like, "I don't use non FDA approved treatments."
I was like, "Oh so you've never treated a vitamin D deficiency with a
supplement? Because Vitamin D
SUPPLEMENTS are not FDA approved too."
Anyway he went on and on and I kept saying, "Look. I tried the damn Synthroid when it first happened. l could not get it to work,. I tried again with that nutso thyroid lady, and BY THE WAY your comment about my T3 being low as "weird" I can actually EXPLAIN to you if you would like but it involves exactly how and why they thyroid interacts with LITHIUM and I am unable to get my T4 to normal without suppressing myself SO badly, even *I* think I am going to die. The biochem takes about a half hour, you got that time?"
Then he was like, "I only use Synthroid." I was like, "I will never try it again. The last 6 months were HELL for me. I do not CARE as you say it is not FDA "regulated" per se, so it's not even a crime. I will order it from Thailand, I will go to Mexico, I will go collect the thyroid of a pig MYSELF before I touch your synthetic crap AGAIN. You could be PLEASANT about this, and give me 6 months to recover and I will go see the endocrinologist my PSYCHIATRIST recommended because he understands Mental illness."
He was like , "I can only go by recommendations. I want you to see an endocrinologist so YOU are more informed. "
I was like, "UM, I AM informed. I have been informed by several doctors JUST LIKE you about the osteoporosis "risk" and the "heart risk" both of which are totally overblown with natural thyroid which you have never investigated because you are close minded. If you think I am going to pay another professional MORE money to hear this in more DETAIL you are insane. I know what I am doing and why, which is more than you can say, Dr. Internist."
Then he was like ,"Well you seem kind of "alternative." I was wearing this super cool skirt I got at the Airport in Las Vegas which is the best airport of all time. I t was all, IDK drapy and it had the OHM symbol on it.
I was like, "Well I do yoga for an hour and a half most days, dude, so if that makes me alternative so BE it but I invite you again to review my med list which contains some freaking HORRIBLE things and like, NOTE that the ONLY LAB value I have outside of NORMAL is the thyroid one by MY choice and as far as I am CONCERNED, you could stand to listen to my recommendations on diet and exercise and managing chronic ILLNESS because I am not "alternative" I take several "quite typical" drugs, you just don't want to bother LISTENING.
Then he referred me to the DO (Doctor of Osteopathy, they are "alternative" I guess) although "one of my Tucson docs, the one I am scheduled to see near Christmas, well, he's not a complete JERK and listens. So since it was before that, I was like, "Sure, why not, because MDs seem to suck these days people aren't these cute boxes you just SHOVE meds down, everyone's different."
Anyway it felt really good to stand UP to a doc and also be like "I can get natural thyroid from Mexico. I might get shot over there, it's pretty intense but purchasing it is not a CRIME. OR, I can order some from Thailand and hope it is not manufactured out of a kid's thyroid, one with a heavy LEAD content but that is ALSO not a crime since it is this weird "
supplement" that you have to prescribe but not technically a medicine.
Then I asked for my pneumonia shot, and he was like, "You aren't a heavy smoker are you?" and I was like ,"No why?' and he was like, "Well you don't meet criteria for it." I was like ,"I could easily BECOME a heavy smoker for the day but I'd probably be back Saturday FOR pneumonia, you can't just PRETEND I smoke heavily.... "OH, CENSORED to this."
It felt AWESOME and maybe my alternative practitioner will have some cool suggestions. Seriously pedes is not so bad because they have to fight with the parents and it can be kind of SWEET to watch, but these adult doctors out here they JUST want to be horrible.
I kind of liked him but I am not a person who is just stamped all over with "inject here or not" and "black box label" and "anything besides Synthroid, even NORMAL thyroid function is going to HELL.
But no more doctors experimenting on me. I told him if I died tomorrow of a heart attack and a broken HIP it would have been worth is because if there is ONE THING bipolar teaches you, it's like QUALITY of life matters MORE than LENGTH of life.
Time to eat. I am sure I shall return. Yoga over getting hunger..
4 days off and I am not sick. YAY!
Anna