Oh I got going alright. I did not want to, but I did. I brought EVERYTHING with me, and anticipated I had a 50/50 shot. So yeah I got there and explained to the pharmacist and she was all like "Why are these scripts old?" and I was like, "Yeah, this is not going to go well at ALL." So then she was on the phone with my
insurance company and apparently I need "NEW" scripts that say "medical exception" on them and the generic. I am afraid by the end I just lost my cool as they kept transferring me from department to department where I was like "So do you want me to die of hives?" and finally they decided to transfer me to a dude who like said I did not HAVE pharmacy benefits AT ALL and nothing was ever dispensed and I tried to get him to say that to pharmacy lady (who rightly I suppose) pointed out that she had seen my meds and etc. etc. That is when I just was like Prince on American Idol (he so did not want to be there) where he just dropped the mike and SAUNTERED off as Ryan what's his face tried to talk to him and he was just like, "Oh NO you paid me to sing, go (censored) yourself." I grabbed my stuff and left.
This was because I was gonna have a meltdown. Anyway, I sat in my car, panting kind of LOL. Then I called a few Mexican pharmacies which like, were like "OH MY GOD NO WE DO NOT SELL ADDERALL' like it was some scary THING when they do sell an amphetamine derivative as a diet pill that is like 16 times stronger AND has other crap in it. So then I was like, "I bet I could write "medical necessity" on these suckers and change the dates and just go to Walmart."
Only, I KNEW I couldn't even in my rage haze I mean even if I got AWAY with that, my doc would kill me, like, that's just not cool adulterating prescriptions. You don't. I mean, that is drug seeking behavior. Plus I knew if I went to Mexico in that state, I might return with Tramadol or SOMETHING bad, and like yes the whole thing was just MESSY.
I guess I am going to have To Keep Calm and Carry On but today is over. I'm not doing anything productive. I took another hive pill and a Benadryl but man.... You can't just NOT take stimulants I would have run over a kid or something. Maybe for the next few days I'll go back to Ritalin or whatever. I don't care. Ugh. At least I know what to tell the doc to do and I feel like I was mean to the pharmacist and like, she did spend a lot of time on it.
So yeah, when they started circular transferring me I just lost it (I was there like 1.5 hours) and now I am home. Many things could be accomplished but really, I just feel like mixing up some "Joy" with some other flavors at say random like grape, a smidge of eggnog, you know, and making the vilest
juice ever and etc. Oy.
Sigh. Well it's only a few days I guess. This is how you learn .I can take extra benzos to work so I don't become an explosive mess (hopefully) for a day or two.
Learning sucks so HARD. I hate my doc. He gave me his cellphone once but I lost it. I guess he thinks I am "stable" I guess mostly I am hah.
Anna