Self destructing in a bad way

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kj4lxw

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Very positive day today.
I work security at a hospital, 12 hour graveyard shifts on the weekends, so I sleep during the day.
When I got up today found the wife home alone. She took our little one to one of her little friend's house for a play day leaving us home together, so I took the plunge.
She was in a good mood so I told her I wanted to talk. Asked her if she could be opened minded and she agreed, though hesitantly.

Asked her if she ever heard of electronic cigarettes, said no. So I went on to explain what they were, not too heavy with it. she knows when something interests me I really read up on things and research it online.

So its all going pretty positive and she is getting receptive, then it gets down to the bottom line, "how much is this going to cost?", quickly followed by "is it under $200?" (hmm, she must have $200 stashed somewhere, he-he-he).

At that moment if you could look inside my mind you would have seen a slot machine getting it's arm yanked and the dials spinning wildly, all stopping on vaping jackpot. (I'm thinking how can I parlay this into a nice juice collection and a mod!)

I say no-no, like around 50-60 to get started and at least half what I spend on smokes, if not less, to maintain. She says ok if that is what it takes lets go for it. I then explain I had some cash stashed and made the plunge and as of today it has been 8 days since I smoked.

She was quite happy and told me she was proud. Her only concern was if there is any nic in the juice. I explained there is but I would work on weening and it comes in different levels and all the other info on nic and it's use in an e-cig.

I was so relieved! I went on to be honest and explain to her I was hesitant to tell her about it as I didn't know how she would take it, if she would support it or not. Explained how I had read about others having problems with some people close to them not being too accepting of the change or having issues dealing with it.
Her words really struck me, "why wouldn't anyone not support someone close to them trying to stop doing something that will kill them?"
That really got to me and I felt very grateful at that moment.

She wanted to see my 510 so I showed it to her, vaped right next to her. she flinched at first when I exhaled, then sniffed it. Said it kind of smelled like clove cigarette to her (wondering why it smelled like that to her?). I vaped some more and she didn't complain. I took it apart and showed her everythig, the box, the unit (I mean e-cig!), how it works.

I think she was interested because she has been harping on me so long to quit that something was actually finally working. We talked a little about NRT, and how I felt this was better, and that I truly believed and had faith in e-cigs, and had I the funds I would sell them or start some type of group to help people stop smoking using these. I really opened up unlike I have in awhile. I think it really touched her.

Finally it all culminated in my going out to the car and getting my last remnant of a pack that I had been saving since I quit. there were 7 left in there, and I stood in front of her and snapped each one in half and threw them in the trash. She started to cry. Just them some dust must of flew off the ceiling fan, aggravating my allergies, because something got in my eyes too.
Only negativity was that she wanted me to pour water on the broken cigs so that they couldn't be retrieved (duh! thats why I broke them at the filter)

Now moods change, and people have their moments, so we'll see how things go in the long term. I am no saint by any means, but she definitely has her faults, so its not all red roses and rainbow inicorn sunsets all the time, but at least it feels like it has been a very, very good day. Feels like I had a weight lifted from me, glad its not a secret anymore and glad she was so receptive. It's more productive to be able to share a positive experience rather than suppress it.
 

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Very positive day today.
I work security at a hospital, 12 hour graveyard shifts on the weekends, so I sleep during the day.
When I got up today found the wife home alone. She took our little one to one of her little friend's house for a play day leaving us home together, so I took the plunge.
She was in a good mood so I told her I wanted to talk. Asked her if she could be opened minded and she agreed, though hesitantly.

Asked her if she ever heard of electronic cigarettes, said no. So I went on to explain what they were, not too heavy with it. she knows when something interests me I really read up on things and research it online.

So its all going pretty positive and she is getting receptive, then it gets down to the bottom line, "how much is this going to cost?", quickly followed by "is it under $200?" (hmm, she must have $200 stashed somewhere, he-he-he).

At that moment if you could look inside my mind you would have seen a slot machine getting it's arm yanked and the dials spinning wildly, all stopping on vaping jackpot. (I'm thinking how can I parlay this into a nice juice collection and a mod!)

I say no-no, like around 50-60 to get started and at least half what I spend on smokes, if not less, to maintain. She says ok if that is what it takes lets go for it. I then explain I had some cash stashed and made the plunge and as of today it has been 8 days since I smoked.

She was quite happy and told me she was proud. Her only concern was if there is any nic in the juice. I explained there is but I would work on weening and it comes in different levels and all the other info on nic and it's use in an e-cig.

I was so relieved! I went on to be honest and explain to her I was hesitant to tell her about it as I didn't know how she would take it, if she would support it or not. Explained how I had read about others having problems with some people close to them not being too accepting of the change or having issues dealing with it.
Her words really struck me, "why wouldn't anyone not support someone close to them trying to stop doing something that will kill them?"
That really got to me and I felt very grateful at that moment.

She wanted to see my 510 so I showed it to her, vaped right next to her. she flinched at first when I exhaled, then sniffed it. Said it kind of smelled like clove cigarette to her (wondering why it smelled like that to her?). I vaped some more and she didn't complain. I took it apart and showed her everythig, the box, the unit (I mean e-cig!), how it works.

I think she was interested because she has been harping on me so long to quit that something was actually finally working. We talked a little about NRT, and how I felt this was better, and that I truly believed and had faith in e-cigs, and had I the funds I would sell them or start some type of group to help people stop smoking using these. I really opened up unlike I have in awhile. I think it really touched her.

Finally it all culminated in my going out to the car and getting my last remnant of a pack that I had been saving since I quit. there were 7 left in there, and I stood in front of her and snapped each one in half and threw them in the trash. She started to cry. Just them some dust must of flew off the ceiling fan, aggravating my allergies, because something got in my eyes too.
Only negativity was that she wanted me to pour water on the broken cigs so that they couldn't be retrieved (duh! thats why I broke them at the filter)

Now moods change, and people have their moments, so we'll see how things go in the long term. I am no saint by any means, but she definitely has her faults, so its not all red roses and rainbow inicorn sunsets all the time, but at least it feels like it has been a very, very good day. Feels like I had a weight lifted from me, glad its not a secret anymore and glad she was so receptive. It's more productive to be able to share a positive experience rather than suppress it.

...I think some dust just got into my eyes as well...:wub:
 

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Very positive day today.
I work security at a hospital, 12 hour graveyard shifts on the weekends, so I sleep during the day.
When I got up today found the wife home alone. She took our little one to one of her little friend's house for a play day leaving us home together, so I took the plunge.
She was in a good mood so I told her I wanted to talk. Asked her if she could be opened minded and she agreed, though hesitantly.

Asked her if she ever heard of electronic cigarettes, said no. So I went on to explain what they were, not too heavy with it. she knows when something interests me I really read up on things and research it online.

So its all going pretty positive and she is getting receptive, then it gets down to the bottom line, "how much is this going to cost?", quickly followed by "is it under $200?" (hmm, she must have $200 stashed somewhere, he-he-he).

At that moment if you could look inside my mind you would have seen a slot machine getting it's arm yanked and the dials spinning wildly, all stopping on vaping jackpot. (I'm thinking how can I parlay this into a nice juice collection and a mod!)

I say no-no, like around 50-60 to get started and at least half what I spend on smokes, if not less, to maintain. She says ok if that is what it takes lets go for it. I then explain I had some cash stashed and made the plunge and as of today it has been 8 days since I smoked.

She was quite happy and told me she was proud. Her only concern was if there is any nic in the juice. I explained there is but I would work on weening and it comes in different levels and all the other info on nic and it's use in an e-cig.

I was so relieved! I went on to be honest and explain to her I was hesitant to tell her about it as I didn't know how she would take it, if she would support it or not. Explained how I had read about others having problems with some people close to them not being too accepting of the change or having issues dealing with it.
Her words really struck me, "why wouldn't anyone not support someone close to them trying to stop doing something that will kill them?"
That really got to me and I felt very grateful at that moment.

She wanted to see my 510 so I showed it to her, vaped right next to her. she flinched at first when I exhaled, then sniffed it. Said it kind of smelled like clove cigarette to her (wondering why it smelled like that to her?). I vaped some more and she didn't complain. I took it apart and showed her everythig, the box, the unit (I mean e-cig!), how it works.

I think she was interested because she has been harping on me so long to quit that something was actually finally working. We talked a little about NRT, and how I felt this was better, and that I truly believed and had faith in e-cigs, and had I the funds I would sell them or start some type of group to help people stop smoking using these. I really opened up unlike I have in awhile. I think it really touched her.

Finally it all culminated in my going out to the car and getting my last remnant of a pack that I had been saving since I quit. there were 7 left in there, and I stood in front of her and snapped each one in half and threw them in the trash. She started to cry. Just them some dust must of flew off the ceiling fan, aggravating my allergies, because something got in my eyes too.
Only negativity was that she wanted me to pour water on the broken cigs so that they couldn't be retrieved (duh! thats why I broke them at the filter)

Now moods change, and people have their moments, so we'll see how things go in the long term. I am no saint by any means, but she definitely has her faults, so its not all red roses and rainbow inicorn sunsets all the time, but at least it feels like it has been a very, very good day. Feels like I had a weight lifted from me, glad its not a secret anymore and glad she was so receptive. It's more productive to be able to share a positive experience rather than suppress it.

Man that was hard to read. The major part of the reason that my marriage failed was my inability to get off tobacco. We promised each other we would quit when we got married, and I was not successful. It was the beginning of resentments.... I also used to get very very touchy and mean when off the smokes.

I have learned what a vicious addiction tobacco is.

So when I read your story I was thankful and moved that your success seems to be a cementing factor for your marriage.

My ex cried because I couldn't get off tobacco. Your ex cried because you did. Congrats on beating the clock!

But regardless of bittersweet reminiscence.. we are both free my friend.... we are both free.
 

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I would say, keep vaping and get rid of your Husband. Don't mean to be harsh, but it seems my ex was very much like your husband. Nothing I did was correct. If he said "stop smoking" which I did, he would complain I was too moody. It was more intense than that, but won't go into detail. Suffice to say, one day I woke up. Knowing what a beautiful, decent, fair, funny and smart person I am, realized I didn't want nor need someone that accusatory and negative in my life. That was 20 years ago, never looked back and have been extremely happy ever since.
Sorry to get on my soapbox, but your story hit a nerve. Keep vaping and be healthy and by all means, be good to yourself and your son.
Cheers.
 

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I would say, keep vaping and get rid of your Husband. Don't mean to be harsh, but it seems my ex was very much like your husband. Nothing I did was correct. If he said "stop smoking" which I did, he would complain I was too moody. It was more intense than that, but won't go into detail. Suffice to say, one day I woke up. Knowing what a beautiful, decent, fair, funny and smart person I am, realized I didn't want nor need someone that accusatory and negative in my life. That was 20 years ago, never looked back and have been extremely happy ever since.
Sorry to get on my soapbox, but your story hit a nerve. Keep vaping and be healthy and by all means, be good to yourself and your son.
Cheers.

Who was that directed to, as it seems like bit of an odd comment, unless you only read the first couple of posts? The OP was subsequently able to work it out with her husband.
 

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@Kj4 - Got goose bumps reading your story. I am so happy for you!


...I think some dust just got into my eyes as well...:wub:

:laugh::laugh:I think the dust bunnies under my desk attacked my eyes. Had to go outside and chill a while.

My ex cried because I couldn't get off tobacco. Your ex cried because you did. Congrats on beating the clock!

But regardless of bittersweet reminiscence.. we are both free my friend.... we are both free.

Cozz -
I can feel your pain about this. The guilt, the blame, the sorrow. I truly believe that when one door closes another one opens. And yes, you are free in some many ways on so many levels. Thank you for sharing.

This was really some read. Really way too much for me to even comment on. I do not have a significant other so I can't really relate on your level.

I just want you all to know you have my support. :D

And hugs all around.

How sweet!!! I don't think it matters that you don't have a significant other. This is about relationships - how vaping affects those around us and well as ourselves. You are always welcome to post your insights and feelings.

And hugs back to you!:)

316 and I have decided through PM that this thread should serve as the support forum until we actually get one.
Is that cool with everyone else????

Will post separately on this.


316: ...sounds like both us couples consist of 4 mental health workers. INTERESTING what ya find out!! VERY COOL!! SMALL WORLD!!!

:DAll I could think of when I read this was "Oh Lord help us!"


My hubby hasn't come around yet. This has been going on for almost 6 months so nothing is going to change for me any time soon. No biggie!! I support myself and the forum helps!! All that really matters is that he supports me in all other areas of my life...and I know part of it is that he is still smoking...so its a support issue for him too.

I think he will come around eventually. And do let him know that he can post and get support as well.

My primary screamed "F&%@ YEAH!!!" when I told him...which CRACKED ME UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !

:D:DI just about blew ice cream out the nose!!
 

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Ok - as Stoked has said, we've been thinking about creating a social group for support.

One of my concerns is it a viable long term adventure or will just posting to the thread suffice?

For that, I believe I'll run a poll and see if there is a great need for this.

If there is, it will take 5 members to get the group onto the board.

Ideally, we should have at least 4 moderators so no one is moderating 24/7.

I would really, really, really, like to see 2 male mods. Hint, hint Kj4, & Ozzi.

We should establish some ground "rules".

Like, "No, we don't condone putting your SO through the wood chipper thank you very much.":facepalm:

So, your comments, suggestions, ideas will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you.
 

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Wow I did not know how many people were in the same boat as me! My hubby quit smoking but still uses the snus. I dont see how that is much different but he always has something to say about how often I vape and a ton of little things. How e cigs have not been tested well enough on and on and on........ I try not to let it get to me but some days it does!
 
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