@nicotineisbomb -
This is very long, but I hope you'll read it all, and maybe it'll have some small effect on your thinking regarding both smoking and vaping.
I
wish that vaping, and a forum like the ECF,
had been around the numerous times I tried to quit smoking during the 42+ years that I smoked 1-1.5 packs a day. I'm sure I would've quit much sooner.
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I don't know why
you smoke, but I know
my reason for starting at age 16. It wasn't the usual peer pressure to smoke, nor because I thought it was a "cool thing" to do, etc. It was because it was the 1 thing I thought
I could do...to "get back" at my parents, for what I was feeling for several years because of their actions. I knew
they both would be hurt by my smoking, but I
wanted them to feel hurt, like I'd been feeling...as an unwilling witness to their overnight arguments, repeatedly separating and getting back together again only to repeat it all, etc.
By the time they
did divorce when I was 17, I didn't quit smoking though, like I
originally thought I could/would be able to do. I was totally hooked on smoking by then. So in the longrun, while I know it hurt
them that I was smoking...for the next 42 years I was also hurting
myself!
During those years I tried quitting by various methods, but
none of them worked. After about 25 years of smoking I'd developed Osteoporosis (bone density loss) because smoking prevents the body from absorbing Calcium very well. Doctor advised me to quit smoking. Did I quit then? Nope...started taking meds for it and kept smoking as usual. About 12 years ago I was diagnosed with mild COPD and was again advised by my doctor to quit smoking. However, since I had no noticeable problems with it that caused me to need medications, or to restrict my usual activites, etc., I just kept smoking my 1.5 packs a day. Did I know it was most likely getting worse, though I didn't have any symptoms of it? Yep, but I kept smoking since I couldn't quit.
Slightly more than 4 years ago, I got the flu or something similar, and I couldn't smoke for 3 days. I took 2 puffs on my first cigarette the next day and coughed so hard I thought I'd almost hock up a lung. I dug out a vaping beginner starter kit I'd bought a year earlier (but only tried twice), and started using it while I was slowly cutting down on my smokes. Slightly less than 2 months after that...I became a "former" smoker. Vaping had worked for me, and I've never had another cigarette since then and know I never will.
Since I've quit smoking,
and am still vaping, these positive changes below have taken place. There has
not been a single negative change!
1. Osteoporosis has been downgraded to osteopenia, because my bone density has improved a great deal, even
without meds.
2. The previous signs of my having COPD on various tests, are no longer there.
3. Spirometer test results show my lung functioning is in the range of someone who's never smoked.
3. My blood oxygen level has greatly increased.
4. Doctor says my lungs sound totally clear, which they haven't been for many many years.
By the way, at every check-up, when my doctor asks if I'm still vaping and not smoking, and I tell him Yes...he gives me a thumbs up or a high 5!
So, you might want to think about not only
your reasons for smoking, but also at least consider what quitting can do to improve your own health...even
while vaping full-time! With your family history especially, IMO it's a huge gamble for you to keep smoking. I only
wish I
could go back in time and either never start, or quit once my parents got divorced. Hindsight is, as they say...20/20.