From my experiments with quitting smoking and all drugs and alcohol and whatnot I and then going back slowly but surely to smoking, I am not sure your body ever "forgets" nic, either physiologically or psychologically. That one glass of wine and one cigarette I had at my father's second wedding (I desperately, desperately needed them after his wedding speech) well, they were not to be forgotten.
The cigarette the driver of the van let me have when I was transferred from a 6 week involuntary hospital to the state one but that ONE magical cigarette lasted for an eternity and were I a POW I would spend a lot of time thinking about it, I think. Because even though I still wasn't freed and I had to go to the state hospital and detox of 17 unnecessary medications I was smoking a cigarette. If he had said no, I might have died. LOL that cigarette takes up like 8 paragraphs in my autobiographical novel. I should post it on my blog, LOL because MAN it was amazing. I was talking about the hopelessness of editing to my little bro if you are going to spend that much time describing a cigarette, like you could smoke more than one while READING about it.
He just laughed and said: "It sounded like a cigarette worth talking about."
He gets it and he is a better quitter than me, but when I found tobacco I knew my brain had found its very best friend forever and nothing else mattered.
Addiction equals: the right drug meets the right brain For me it was smoking, I did not vape because I hated cigarettes. I loved them, And I do indeed love vaping. But, if I could smoke a single cigarette after dinner every night outside and watching the stars without health consequences (including losing taste buds+ and whatnot which I imagine I would, well, I would be there in a heartbeat. I an pretty sure I could maintain it with vaping until the day I COULDN'T.
If someone near and dear to me dies I will buy a full pack of black American Spirit tobacco and smoke the pack over time, and grieve them. Vaping has saved me a lot, and I don't consider myself a non smoker AT ALL. I am a (most of the time) very energetic and enthusiastic quitter,
But I have smoked before and am sure I will again. However the intervals go longer and longer, .Not sure if that's habit, practice or what, I will say not smoking over the job thing was impressive etc,
Anna