Said it before but will repeat to add to the others OP DO NOT GET A MECH MOD, mechs are great if you have the knowledge to operate them safely nothing you have said in this thread points to you having that knowledge or being able to safely use one so forget the mech option. Still on that point the member that recommended a mech was wrong to do so, regulated is the way to go for you OP and you've had some great offer's from good people to help you out, if you haven't already I'd take them up on their kind offer's to buy you some time to source gear you need. To those who made those offer's it's really great to see that people can still surprise with their generosity and reach out to help a stranger, your fantastic people and hope you get what you deserve at Xmas.