Ahh, you folks are awesome. PROLIFIC! My bad, for not checking in daily, but oh my goodness, I DO speed-read and it still takes me a pretty long time to catch up.
I wanted to thank those that talked about their experiences with mental illness. I felt pretty far out on a wire when I talked about my son, so THANK you for sharing your stories too. I'm fortunate that my son's condition is not as severe as it could be, that he does not experience auditory and visual hallucinations. That's why the docs have had such a hard time with him though, he does not fit well into any of the categories, but gosh before he got onto his current round of medications, he was in horrible shape. Talking in rhyme, believing in magical numbers and signals, taping knives to his arms to prop himself up while pulling all-nighters on the computer. Also suicidal ideation, being unable to eat for weeks at a time, all sorts of perceived ailments (he went from 190lbs to 135lbs) before we (the family) had him forcibly taken to a mental hospital by the police. Hard stuff. He is much much more functional now, but his thought systems are still way off. He has applied for disability, but has been denied so far. He's on his final appeal.
My 3rd husband had some sort of horrible mental illness as well. He was a Vietnam vet, told me that he had been discharged on a medical because of the trauma during the war - he had been a sniper - but as time went on I learned that he had had drastic problems even before he entered the military. I found out too that he had actually been dishonorably discharged. All of this trying to figure him out happened when after 6 months of marriage he started doing really really strange stuff, like having strangers present in our house when I'd get home from work, that he had promised could sleep with me. Nightmare. I finally ran away one night after he inexplicably released my throat after having grabbed it, and went off down the hall to load a gun instead. At which moment I snapped to, and realized "HELLLLLL!!!! RUNNNNN!!!" Scariest seconds of my life as I ran out the front door to my car, knowing that he had been a SNIPER, and thinking 'gogogogogogo!' I made it out. My car was faster than his, and I drove all the way to mommy's house 2 states away.
Anyway though, point is, and I know we've all met them, known them, seen them at work and wherever -- I think there are a LOT more people with serious mental problems and issues, clinical ones, than people generally think there are out there. A really REALLY good reason to NOT date! heck with that! Better to stay inside, yikes!
Then you guys were talking about how we started vaping -- mine is still in starting stages but I've been lucky -- so far, 2 months, no urge to smoke cigarettes. Vaping works for me just fine. Main reason I think I am staying off cigarettes is that I know that if I have them, I smoke them ALL, and then I would get aggravated WHEN I can't afford to buy more, and I know I can't. So it has pretty well seeped into my brain that cigarettes are just not an option for me ... so far, so good.
And again, thanks for all the great music!
I can be patient just not as happy as they would like. Is that bad? Maybe, I am human, many flaws.
