I am a smoker/vaper..... Background: I used to smoke 3+PAD, now around a pack to a pack and 1/2, I want to slowly cut my smoking down, I read the first 30 pages of this thread and felt like I found what I was looking for. I am so addicted to smoking it's crazy. I have enough different devices to know it isn't that. (doesn't stop me from looking at the new stuff, but my wallet has moths coming out and nothing much else) I have different delivery systems as well. I have enough horrible juice to last a life time. I have two or three decent ones. I have juices from 12mg to 24mg. I can't seem to figure out why I am still rolling the cigarettes. My life is extremely stressful and I have a list of health issues. My roommate and best friend is disabled. He had a brain injury years ago and has severe anger issues. So, I reach for that crutch way too often. I am an insomniac, sleep when I can, I am disabled as well, so, I am unemployed.
In November, I started to vape, a whim while shopping in the drugstore. I bought a disposable and two days later a Blu kit. I went online and purchased another kit from V2. I am really broke but wanted this so badly, I was willing to let bills go so I could continue to improve my experience. Then a 808 ego style from Volt, followed by a couple of twists from Altsmoke. I got a Vamo after that. I quit smoking for 3 months. I was very happy. In February, I flew to New York for a family function. Someone, passing by my seat sneezed on me and within 24 hours I got sick. I could not vape, I don't know why, I would feel like I was coughing my lungs out, but damm it, I could smoke. So, now here I am, just need the help of a few friendly vapors that won't say it's all my fault. I do feel guilty, I know I shouldn't. Or at least that I am trying or I would have just walked away from all of this.
I can't buy anything right now, I am too strapped, waiting on disability to do my hearing. My roommate is helping me on his very meager check. Just wanted to say that it was great reading the first 30 pages, and the last 15. I intend to continue reading from the beginning. Maybe something along the line will click for me.
Thanks to all of you that posted and "came out" so to speak. I thought I was the only one that had this experience. I was the failure. I know that I am not a failure but a work in progress. Sometimes this is frustrating and sends me off to roll another. Sorry if this is long or poorly written, my eyes aren't that great and I don't type as well as I used to.