I agree with everything you said. I just hope it's enough and I don't screw up.
Terry, just be yourself. Rave likes you as you are. She had fun with you when you visited. Why would that not continue?
I know how you feel, because I've been in mental places like that, too. Take advice from a drunk that passed me on a street in NYC, who said to the world in general, "Don't worry. It'll all blow over." This trouble you're having buying the house is just something you have to get through, and it'll all blow over at some point. You CAN get through this! It WILL all come together someday. It's a PITA, but lots of things in life are, and this move is something worth working hard for, isn't it? When you're all moved in and settled, ask yourself, "Was it worth it?"
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I battled it out and won, there was absolutely no reason he could keep me out, but I was breaking new ground. One of my friends decided auto shop was a good idea as well and when she had her appointment, she also convinced her counselor. The instructor was not pleased, he made a big deal out of it, keeping the lights on during films, making sure our chairs were spread more than arms distance from any of the guys. He was always very condescending to us. This was classroom only, no actual shop work for the first class, but I got a lot out of it. I just wanted to learn how my car worked, and I did. The next year lots more girls signed up. That was early 70's, my how times have changed! (Raspberry to Mr. Zasadny and Mr. Benjamin!)



And all this week, I can't seem to stop sleeping when I don't normally nap during the day. Can't help but wonder if my immune system is working so hard to fight that bug that I've been nearly comatose even though I've had none of his symptoms other than a headache.
Haven't been able to get a derned thing done.