I wouldn't mind camping in a camper but hubby wants to camp and sleep in a tent on the hard ground. I'm not into roughing it quite that much. The no internet, tv, or cell phones sounds awesome though.
Pass me one of those beers please.
I had lunch out with my best friend from high school today. I enjoyed getting out alone for a while. Morgan was mad that I wouldn't take her. Too bad, I needed a break. We planned it a few days ago because she would be in town for this weekend. I had planned to run to my moms afterward but we ended up going to Ross to browse around and I didn't get back on the road for the 45 minute drive home until close to 6.
While I had a good time getting out with my friend today it was a bitter sweet day. I found out after mindnight last night that a friend of mine was hit by a car and killed yesterday evening. I had thought it was odd that she didn't respond to my message because she's usually really good about it. I figured she was busy or out celebrating her birthdy which is today. I met her online a year ago. No one can tell me that online friends aren't just as important as those you know in person. She also had Menieres and she was so supportive and helpful when I needed it most giving me little ideas to help, checking on me when I was having bad symptoms, helping me decide what treatments to start with and pursue and kept me from completely sinking into oblivion on the really hard days. She helped me make the hard decision to have my entire middle ear removed if it didn't get better or comes back. That's still the plan. She understood that it would be better to be completely deaf and no balance left on one side than to have to live with the unpredictable attacks. It's one thing to have family that is supportive, that's a must. But to have a friend that knows what hill you're going
through when you have to crawl to the ba
throom because the vertigo is so bad you can't walk, hear noise in your ears all the time, lose your hearing, ruptured eardrums, have needles stuck in your ear out of desperation to make it stop, and was able to make me laugh about walking like a toddler for months because my vestibular and neurological system had damaged my balance and cognitive function. She was the only one that truly understood. And now she's gone.
I'm going to get serious for a minute here. If you don't want to read it, turn it off now. I want to take this chance now to say I am sorry for bringing the posse down in the hole with me during the beginning of my being sick last year. I wasn't trying to elicit sympathy or pity, I truly just needed an outlet. I don't have many "in person" friends. Pretty much my only one is the one I had lunch with today and my husband. I realize now (really quite a while back I realized it) it was probably an awkward position to put you guys in when this isn't the place for it. I let my depression, being sick, constant trouble and worry about the kids and their future, and not being able to work take me to a dark place. It was hard to fake it some days. So anyway, the point being that I was wrong to bring the group and individual friends down and burden anyone here with any of it. I apologize. That's all I have to say about it and it won't be brought up again. I hope you can understand. And I hope you can forgive me, all of you.
Now, on to a more positive note. Lunch at Longhorn was really good. Steak and cheese hoagie sandwich. I couldn't eat all of it but Morgan enjoyed the rest of it for dinner.
I still have a small gummy bear stash left over from last night but they are staying hidden until everyone is in bed because I don't want to share.
So is everyone's winter pretty much coming to a halt? We skipped winter in the south this year.
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Hope everyone is having a good weekend.
We're not stuck in the same room, honest. We have campfires, wine and cheese with friends. S'mores, beer, tons of food, the lake, fishing, wandering around the woods with Victor. It's relaxing, we leave the cell phone turned off. No internet and no cable. If it rains and we are stuck inside, we build a model. This year it's going to be a pirate ship. 
No opened bottles in the car, ya know? And my bike was going on a trailer because of a hole in the radiator, so I didn't even have to drive (or be conscious) the next day! 
