I'm a bit like that Spydro. Although I don't have the unicorns. I would like to buy a special present for myself for an upcoming big birthday but I wouldn't do it the same justice as the people on the bench because I can tell their desire is stronger. Me being quite new to VA things is maybe why - I haven't even tried some of my existing ones so I still have that to enjoy yet.
That's also part of the mix for me. While I've had my SnP V1 for a long time, I just started buying the PAPS, Piccolo's, Heron's, Spheroids, etc a few weeks ago and joined the family here. So do I deserve to own an X Ti when there are so many that deserve them more than I do? Probably not.