Oh heck happy birthday to everyone. It's like, we're all alive, vaping etc. For all *I* know, my own mother lied to me (and the authorities) about my birthdate. It's in German I can't even read it other than it sounds vaguely angry. Not sure if that was my mom's responses or like the form itself.
Pardon. I am just bitter as since ever SINCE the great amnesia event, I have been politely texting her to find out how she is doing and if she is up for a PHONE call. She keeps texting back pitiful little updates about how she's still "ill." And (although I BELIEVE they did neuro tests and stuff) the hospital told her to FOLLOW UP with her PCP. If I had sky high blood pressure, had forgotten the existence of one of my children, was of the belief that my dead spouse was still alive, and then FORGOT about the whole thing afterward, I would PUNCH any hospital that referred me to my PCP, in my opinion THAT PCP is a BIT out of their league.
And clearly true since she like, said she was getting treated "for Lyme disease" WHUT? She says she doesn't think her episode of "IS there a doctor on the plane" was that big a deal but she DOES feel off and like, thinks she might have Lyme disease. Okay, Mom.
Meanwhile, my kiddo who lives in her basement (I want to get him out, if only because he should not be left to care for her and my brother who lives there is the most self-centered human being on the planet) is saying stuff like ,"Grandmommy seems fine." And, "Grandmommy is talking to lots of people on the phone."
Jesus. My feelings are hurt. And not in that kind of angry way where you are like "I hate my parent because X" I just GENUINELY want to talk to her and I am trying to be polite, and she is making it abundantly clear she does not want to talk to ME. I was not even going to call her a drug seeker (not this phone call.... and I should freaking know)!!!!!
I can't figure out an elegant way to text her to let her know my feelings are hurt AND I don't hate her, because those two emotions have been always coupled together before, so I don't even know how to say "Mom, you barely ever call me and you call my sister three times a week, what gives ,do I SUCK that much?"
Still trying to wrap my head around that one ,but yeah, happy birthday, we vape our mothers can be (Cesoreds) BIG ones.
I'm not even gonna candle this icon up. Unless I do the soundtrack to "Candle in the Wind." Etc.
Anna
