I’m just hanging out with the dog. My wife and daughter are going to my wife’s friends house for a few hours. I might take advantage of the free time and at least get some flavors put away and redo my list.
Dang it... just tried Liquid Barn sweetener and was like... EM. Sure enough, looked it up and it's just EM (not that I hate EM just that mostly all it did was mute the other flavors) Maybe all I really needed was to use more caramel?
Anna, I've always wished I could be invisible
I frequently am, in the husband's dreams dude, and I must be lucid THERE too, because it wouldn't work otherwise and I appear to behave just as terribly at times as I do in my life like I was like "Why can't we go somewhere nice, like Hawaii?" and he was like, "We do. We stare at the ocean for a while and then you are like, "Let's go play in some lava dude." I was like, "WHY WOULD I SAY THAT?" He goes, "You get bored." I was like, yeah that sounds about right, I just don't have the burden of remembering them.
Man there have been times I have searched ALL over the property for the husband and he is NOWHERE. We're not talking HUGE either, like most visible at most times. Either he is practicing his ninja skills, does not want to deal with me at that moment, or whatever, eventually I will come across him like reading something intently scrawled across the front porch like you would trip over the invisible him.... I say, "Where were you? I was looking everywhere for you!!" He'll answer, "I've been here the whole time. People say I do that sometimes." So maybe he DOES go invisible, he sure can move pretty fast when he has to. I swear. Maybe he like, is just messing with me and playing one person hide and seek. I am THINKING the latter because he has not done it in a while since the year of ETERNAL TIRED. I did figure out, talking with my dad, yeah, I might be 46 now but it CAN'T be worse than the year of 45 unless I LITERALLY die from it.... So like, yeah. That.
@FranC I heard NON stop from the VA until Thursday afternoon from Credentialing Nice but Crazy lady but then it became a 3 day weekend, and it's 4th of July so they could try their hardest, no one is checking their email. Oh, I did and was rewarded from a missive from my dad who was all like, how are you, you missed my birthday etc. But still fairly pleasant. So I had to write back and apologize and tell the story of how I forgot my own HUSBAND'S birthday and figured it out at the Holiday Xmas Party my first year and I had to be like, "Oh hay, everyone yes I am the person who advises children and families about how to have better, healthier happier lives, and this is my husband who is 55 TODAY. My name is...." etc. It was quite humiliating actually to be honest.
I am sure I will freaking hear from them SOON like first thing Monday or sometime next week.
Man, interesting things in the garage. I need to know who wrote this prayer. I had a book of sayings and prayers that I wrote, but I CANNOT have written this one, it must have been someone else. Like IDK the bible sorta? It's also like, sort of got an al--anon feel to it. BUT if it is ME I'm claiming it BOOM! Copyright right here, Anna no last name wrote this deep and tender prayer.
It scares me a little if I wrote it.
I'm going to ask God to let me love you as if I'd never been hurt.
Help! I cannot possibly be this deep!
Yeah it's someone else. I could imagine me praying it but coming up with it? IDK.
HELP. Figure out who this giant is? Also I need to do that more I guess like whether it is me or someone else. LOL
We did awesome on the boxes like 20 out of the garage man. I was sort of having a good time and was rewarded by more of my 3rd grader's writings of awesome. Plus the Golf Pennant with many other famous golfers but NOT Tiger Woods. Sigh. That kid was fearless. I feel really bad because stuff changed for him. I would send him back to his dad-- not knowing his dad had relapsed and left him home and stole the money we'd send for him to buy stuff for his cigarettes and not leave food or potable water. The kid always looked a bit thin but like, I always figured, "Well. he'd grown." I'd always be like, "You do not HAVE to go," because he would make increasingly poor behavior choices, but I had no idea the ex would tell him, " I will send one of my workers to like, kill you and your stepdad if you say anything." My kid would just beg him and beg him to get sober and he'd promise but it sounded like a literal hell on earth.
When he finally had enough and said something, I just looked at him and said "Oh, honey. I don't even know what to say right now, other than, it's a lot easier to say that stuff than actually do it. We are gonna be here, I promise." I just went home, put him to bed, sobbed and sobbed and we saw a lawyer the next day. The kid finally put down the shovel or it broke, but it was good in some ways, the kid has great boundaries with drunks. He's not unkind, but he understands it and doesn't want that. ;Which makes bars a hard place to pick up chicks I guess.
In any case, I loved that kiddo so much and he did develop fears and phobias which I could not understand, like he had this terror of being locked in and somehow got locked in the garage and was so scared he took the door RIGHT off the hinges. Then he freaked out for breaking it and me and the husband were like "NO! We can fix it! Don't worry! What happened! Why did you freak out like that, you could have just opened the garage door and rang the doorbell. Don't freak out. It's Okay!" He was like, "I thought you might have done it on purpose!" and I was like, "Child, I would NEVER do that on purpose you have to PROMISE me to break a door if you need to we would never do it on purpose."
But in 3--4 grade, he was fearless. Eventually we both had to put down the damn shovel. I mean, I've seen kids withheld from parents who IMMEDIATELY then petition the court at 16 to go live with them and become drunks. But, I loved my kid at that age. He is still great, he is no longer totally fearless, hell, maybe I need to send the kid that payer although he is an atheist.. He might benefit from a reversal. Like, "I'm going to ask God to let me love you as if you'd never been hurt."
I was a very permissive mom and I always opined children have the exact same rights as everyone else. Not the same experience unfortunately. But, I always admired his ability to speak his mind perfectly and confidently to any adult that counts. I suppose he still does, it's just more chill. IDK.
Yoga SOON.
Figured out the husband's neurosis with the boxes!! Made it 500 times easier. We are packing like mad anyway because wherever we DO go it won't be here.
And I will have tons of time to be invisible when I'm dead. So I shall let me off the hook for that one. Anna
I’m about a third of the way through the tank of lemon custard. The sour lemon was a little weird at first but it’s already starting to blend in. I might mix a bottle of it with FE lemon just to see the difference.
I’m debating whether to work on my last review or work on organizing flavors. I doubt I’ll feel like both tonight. I should probably do the review.
I’m debating whether to work on my last review or work on organizing flavors. I doubt I’ll feel like both tonight. I should probably do the review.
Didn't get to try the new scale yet (tomorrow... had a few beers and really should read the instructions first even though it's very straightforward to use) I did mix some unflavored base (just the usual 12 mg... might just dilute some instead of making a separate 9 mg batch) Really need to organize my vape stuff (as in throw a bunch of crap away... small bottles of experiment that I don't care about anyway) Need to make room on the shelves for new stuff. I hope I find time tomorrow for mixing and re-doing two RTAs. Oh well, I did get a lot of rest today (really needed it... my son had me trying to bust out concrete with a sledge hammer yesterday... I'm too old for that)
of course... even though it's really easy (but then I might grab the wrong flavor LOL) Mom asked me what we should have for dinner today. The usual would be bbq burgers and potato salad but we just had that the other night. I said "it's been awhile since we had spaghetti" so we had that and garlic bread with salad. It was nice (just the two of us... everyone else had other plans today) Was going to get one last tank from my RTA but the battery on my mod died... looks like everything is on hold for tomorrow
At least I will finally try "Water Malone" one-shot (so I can actually say I have tried it and not just say I've heard great things about it) I'm sure it will be too sweet.
Happy 4th
Fireworks aren't my thing, and I don't really celebrate the 4th like all the normies out there, but I hope you all enjoy whatever you are up to tonight and have a happy time.
Fireworks aren't my thing, and I don't really celebrate the 4th like all the normies out there, but I hope you all enjoy whatever you are up to tonight and have a happy time.
So DO NOT ever! In any capacity! Sometimes even toast some toast! MAKE anything you are going to ingest along with your alcohol besides (sometimes) more alcohol! That you have CREATED or attempted to make YOURSELF!!
TRUST ME ON THIS.
If you get hungry it is permissible to open up a Ramen package and gnaw on what is inside (get rid of the flavor package it does you no good in that state and I suggest doing it outside your own room and definitely NOT on your own bed.) It's kinda tasty though.
I used to eat them like that for a late night snack, I would sometimes eat them "or pretend" to eat them like on my first room mate's bed, like leave the packet on the dang bed spread.
Me and my roommate hated each other but were caught in a mutual circle of friends. We were in a chicken of who could get whom to move out first. I won. Or lost. But I had my own space. Until then she had 90% of the room so I focused on like, making my 10% as objectionable as possible.
OMG she also (she looked like Stefi Graff or however that is spelled HUGE nose, only meaner) married this pudgy dude who was Just Foul. She attended my bachelorette party. She traumatized me for life (my husband was really hot as a youth but you should aim for FAR MORE than that, is my considered, retroactive opinion.) Anyway, though she and her dude were MARRIED and she leaned over halfway thorough and said, "We are swi
rs, are you?"
I looked at her in deep horror and said, "You are not fing my soon to be husband, I'm SO sorry. And when it comes to YOURS I respectfully DECLINE. No offense, but a) WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU WE HATE EACH OTHER. b) You need to use the playground equipment in your OWN DAMN LEAGUE you are the stuff of nightmares to me not just physically but emotionally. If I were to opt into that particular league you would be the LAST person I would START WITH. C) DIE DIE DIE have you no SHAME. You know you came to see all our pals you hate me how stupid are you?"
LOL I almost uninvited her but I sincerely wanted her to see how great the husband and I looked as a monogamous COUPLE. When the "any objections" question came up I almost said, "I have one there is a foul pairing in this nest. They want to do things with us that are against God and nature (I mean they probably aren't. You sometimes get desperate. We have all sort been with people we shouldn't on a desperate basis. You know, it's probably natural for some people.... It was more, I KNEW HER PERSONALITY) So I opted to say nothing, but I thought about it hard. If the priest said "Who?" I would have said, :"The one with the nose, and the one with hamburger fat glistening on his face." He would have instantly picked them out and gone, "OH GOD PROCLAIMS THIS FOUL INDEED YOU ARE SHOOTING WAY OUT OF YOUR LEAGUE."
LOL.
Then the "Happy Together" song played. That is such a great "Exit" Wedding song, but you can't use it twice. I sing it all the time I love that song and my husband says, "How come you know it so well?" I say, "Um, honey I could tell you but it would decrease both our happiness in the song, I promise." He, bless his heart lets it go. I ask a jillion questions. Which is how I found out he is deeply afraid when it comes to forgetting something or losing something." He actually is super thoughtful on this he packed my hiking shoes (Swiss) and my hiking boots (tough) and I was like "HONEY I am so happy you kept these when I got rid of them! You are the best these are like WAY expensive I don't know what I was thinking! I will run everything by you from now on!" SO then he was happy until the clothes because I have "fat clothes" and clothes that go down to size one junior.
I am being summoned. Gotta go. Hope I offended no one. LOL.
DO you... .OMG
Anna
TRUST ME ON THIS.
If you get hungry it is permissible to open up a Ramen package and gnaw on what is inside (get rid of the flavor package it does you no good in that state and I suggest doing it outside your own room and definitely NOT on your own bed.) It's kinda tasty though.
I used to eat them like that for a late night snack, I would sometimes eat them "or pretend" to eat them like on my first room mate's bed, like leave the packet on the dang bed spread.
Me and my roommate hated each other but were caught in a mutual circle of friends. We were in a chicken of who could get whom to move out first. I won. Or lost. But I had my own space. Until then she had 90% of the room so I focused on like, making my 10% as objectionable as possible.
OMG she also (she looked like Stefi Graff or however that is spelled HUGE nose, only meaner) married this pudgy dude who was Just Foul. She attended my bachelorette party. She traumatized me for life (my husband was really hot as a youth but you should aim for FAR MORE than that, is my considered, retroactive opinion.) Anyway, though she and her dude were MARRIED and she leaned over halfway thorough and said, "We are swi
rs, are you?"I looked at her in deep horror and said, "You are not f
ing my soon to be husband, I'm SO sorry. And when it comes to YOURS I respectfully DECLINE. No offense, but a) WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU WE HATE EACH OTHER. b) You need to use the playground equipment in your OWN DAMN LEAGUE you are the stuff of nightmares to me not just physically but emotionally. If I were to opt into that particular league you would be the LAST person I would START WITH. C) DIE DIE DIE have you no SHAME. You know you came to see all our pals you hate me how stupid are you?"LOL I almost uninvited her but I sincerely wanted her to see how great the husband and I looked as a monogamous COUPLE. When the "any objections" question came up I almost said, "I have one there is a foul pairing in this nest. They want to do things with us that are against God and nature (I mean they probably aren't. You sometimes get desperate. We have all sort been with people we shouldn't on a desperate basis. You know, it's probably natural for some people.... It was more, I KNEW HER PERSONALITY) So I opted to say nothing, but I thought about it hard. If the priest said "Who?" I would have said, :"The one with the nose, and the one with hamburger fat glistening on his face." He would have instantly picked them out and gone, "OH GOD PROCLAIMS THIS FOUL INDEED YOU ARE SHOOTING WAY OUT OF YOUR LEAGUE."
LOL.
Then the "Happy Together" song played. That is such a great "Exit" Wedding song, but you can't use it twice. I sing it all the time I love that song and my husband says, "How come you know it so well?" I say, "Um, honey I could tell you but it would decrease both our happiness in the song, I promise." He, bless his heart lets it go. I ask a jillion questions. Which is how I found out he is deeply afraid when it comes to forgetting something or losing something." He actually is super thoughtful on this he packed my hiking shoes (Swiss) and my hiking boots (tough) and I was like "HONEY I am so happy you kept these when I got rid of them! You are the best these are like WAY expensive I don't know what I was thinking! I will run everything by you from now on!" SO then he was happy until the clothes because I have "fat clothes" and clothes that go down to size one junior.
I am being summoned. Gotta go. Hope I offended no one. LOL.
DO you... .OMG
Anna
On a more pleasant end to the day, like Douglas has a normally normal (But this year, just all the law divisions, flashing their lights and sirens) parade, and they have a real, honest to goodness like fireworks celebration and SOME of those fireworks are even Red, White and Blue.
I have seen a TON of just Mexican flag fireworks in Tucson every COLOR but red, white and blue to the point (if you are a curmudgeon like me) you say, "This is on purpose." Not that I really cared I mean green, white and purple is like pleasant also. Or is it green, white red.
Oh well, who cares. They make LOUD noise and bright lights and I am certain they MUST contribute to Global warming (if it's real) but since it is night time we all pretend to forget. I mean Disney does it once per night.
Florida; CA OMG I need to get ahold of Al Gore IMMEDIATELY!! LOL.
Anna
I have seen a TON of just Mexican flag fireworks in Tucson every COLOR but red, white and blue to the point (if you are a curmudgeon like me) you say, "This is on purpose." Not that I really cared I mean green, white and purple is like pleasant also. Or is it green, white red.
Oh well, who cares. They make LOUD noise and bright lights and I am certain they MUST contribute to Global warming (if it's real) but since it is night time we all pretend to forget. I mean Disney does it once per night.
Florida; CA OMG I need to get ahold of Al Gore IMMEDIATELY!! LOL.
Anna
Two family parties got cancelled.Happy 4th
Fireworks aren't my thing, and I don't really celebrate the 4th like all the normies out there, but I hope you all enjoy whatever you are up to tonight and have a happy time.
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