I am beat and hurting and feeling kind of feverish

kiddo needed me to take her to work, oh yeah she got a job this week

at the art museum, she is so happy...basically just walks around telling people to not touch, no food/drinks/etc in this area...
but then she was bored so wanted to go out before work...ug....
we went out to eat, then she wanted to go to an antique
shop across the street....yeah I didn't last very long, my back and knees were not happy with me so I went back out and sat in my van while she shopped...
went to get her a starbucks but they had a line around the building and out the parking lot so decided to run around walmart instead, she wanted to get some makeup and stuff...I'm not too proud, don't care

rode around in one of their electric carts (not sure it really helped though, uff it was so uncomfortable)
that's really the first I've done anything in a year, aside from running to the store to pick up my meds and a money order for rent once a month.
trying not to go to sleep because if I do, I won't sleep tonight...
but man I am hurting, forgot that even just sitting hurts my back and knees (short person problems when your feet don't touch the ground

) usually at home I'm leaning on my side with pillows under my arm on the couch to support my back and with my legs propped up...
b.e.a.d.s. finally found her an apartment of her own...idiots kept trying to put her into group homes and crap, I'm like why can't you just put her into an assisted living community, I don't understand the problem!?!
so finally they are doing that, they showed her a place today (
through video chat) that sounds pretty good, it is two bedrooms because she'll eventually have a room mate....
they wanted to argue that she can't live on her own (which I do somewhat agree, but a group home is not the answer)...and I'm like ok but when she goes to college how exactly do you expect that to work???? Oh well, um....yeah they had no answer....and sadly they've dropped the ball on getting her into college...she was supposed to start last year but due to covid, it was supposed to be this year and well now I don't even know....kya doesn't want to do online, which most college's are doing atm, so I guess it's been put off for a bit....I don't want her to put it off much longer though because then she won't do it....going straight from high school into college would have been easier for her, but taking a break and then trying to go back to school is going to be difficult. And I think the b.e.a.d.s. program isn't going to force the issue....but the goal was for her to go to college for her art degree so she could start working for hasbro (or well any company as a design concept artist but hasbro because she loves transformers and we had a chance meeting a few years ago with the design manager, head honcho, who was really impressed with her art work and told her what classes to take in college so he could hire her when she was old enough)
hahaha that night was crazy...it was at a transformer convention, and there was an after party meet and greet for those who paid for it...so we were at our table just snacking on stuff and she was sketching away when Ben (another head honcho of habro) walked by and stopped, commented on her work and was like hold on a sec I'll be right back....he comes back with this guy, John (I had no clue who he was) and he's all giving kya tips on her drawing and then starts sketching in her book giving her examples on how to improve...these 2 were off in their own little world just sketching away and I start noticing there's a crowd of people gathering and whispering and taking pics....I'm like um ok, I guess ya know because he must also work for hasbro.....after he left someone came up to me like, you know who he was right??? No...assuming he's one of the artists...um, he's the top dog of hasbro, he's the director of product design/senior design manager of hasbro....oh, no Ben just brought him over so I assumed he worked with Ben (who, he himself was kind of a big deal too, he was the marketing/brand executive of hasbro and we'd run into him a few times
through out the convention...to where we were on first name bases

)
and then a couple years later went to botcon again and John was there and remember kya, unfortunately he gave the info to my parents (because I wasn't there that day, I had to work) so I have no idea what happened to it, but he told kya what college to go to that they pick from, what courses to take, so that when she graduated he could easily hire her) knowing my mom it was trashed...I've often thought just to shoot him an email like I don't know if you remember me but....
and anyways I'm rambling off on a tangent...I just don't want her to miss the opportunity of her dream job (which is within her grasp, it's not like it's a pipe dream, she's talented and has had chance meetings with hasbro's big wigs over the years who were very interested in her even at the age of 14) just because someone else doesn't see it or thinks that an art career isn't a good decision or that she won't be able to do college (which I do somewhat agree, high school was difficult enough but let's encourage her to try because she's already pretty much guaranteed a job, if she follows John's advice, with a big name company, granted she probably wouldn't get to work on transformer stuff but still it'd be within the hasbro name)
I know that a lot of the stuff she draws is kind of meh, it's mostly doodles, concepts, and just quick stuff she does and sells online for $1 - $6....but when she wants to, she can draw/sketch..lately she's been having fun with fruits and I'm impressed, they're really good.
and now i'm shutting up....sorry I'm on a complete sugar and caffeine high

man that french toast was good but weee3eeee sugar....it was a banana nut bread french toast covered in powdered sugar, bananas, whipped cream, and caramel sauce...and the french toast was dipped in a cinnamon and sugar mixture.....yummy but wow sugar rush