Okay, so I just had the 'experience.' The one where I was anticipating having a smoke after a meal. I was with friend from high school, and we were eating lunch in his car, and I was thinking that afterward I would light up. But then things got a bit rushed after we finished, and as I was walking to the school, I had forgotten to light up, but could feel myself craving it. Got into school and felt lost, but confident as well. Like, I'm just here to look around and then going to step out for that smoke. Man, I'm craving a smoke, I thought. Started wondering if I'll ever graduate from high school as I never attend classes much anymore, and in this moment, smoking matters more to me than hanging around this place.
And then I woke up. Been a long while since I had that kind of dream. Could recall in first few moments of waking that I was really craving a smoke still. Bizarre how the mind will play that trick on you. But in my case, I'm thinking it's cause last night I was thinking along lines of, "I may have accidentally quit smoking here recently." Which you here all know, is not where I say I'm coming from. Me, the proud moderate smoker. Yet, me (lately) as the guy who doesn't smoke when given the chance, and doesn't seem to care to smoke ever again. Might have to have one today just to remember who I am, or who I say I am, or was. Okay, I realize this all reads like an inner struggle, but I truly do not see it as big deal if I have one, or don't. And do think it was made a big deal in my dream state cause I set myself up to feel like I was being deprived of it, and that the craving was way for me to feel 'comforted' in that deprivation. That's how I see it working, in the mind/ego.
In reality of this morning, I'm way more concerned over sudden snowball of states in the US presenting bills to ban online sales of eCigs. That and usage bans popping up are suddenly having all that stuff we worried about for last couple years come to the forefront of what we on vaping forums may care to talk about. But I kinda feel sorry for opposition as they are about to get a fight from so many people, they won't realize what hit them.