I'm sorry you are finding this difficult.
Please keep reminding yourself that your health (and the health of people breathing around you) is worth the effort.
Most often when I talk to a person who is not satisfied by their e-cig I find that they are using a lower nicotine liquid.
For a long time smoker, with greater than a pack a day habit, using an old style device (cig or cigar shaped not sub ohm) I don't think 24 or even 30 mg/ml is too high a starting place.
A much smaller number of people are using too high a level of nicotine.
If you give your body an instant nicotine fix, without spending time on the other self soothing behaviors which were a part of your smoking habit, it is likely to leave you unsatisfied.
I think that if you have recently been smoking cigarettes you might need to duplicate that experience as closely as possible. Use a cig-alike for a while, not a mod. Use tobacco flavored liquid for a while, not nicer flavors. Smoke at the same places, with the same people, listening to the same music, for the same amount of time.
Yes you heard me right; I do not think you should necessarily avoid smokers. You might find that secondhand smoke is comforting. If it's disgusting to you, move away, that's fine. But if it is comforting go ahead and use that to ease you through this transition.
I have what seems to be an uncommon attitude toward nicotine. I believe there are some people who should not give up nicotine because they are at serious risk of falling back into smoking.
It seems absolute truth to me, beyond question, that some people are using nicotine to self-medicate. It helps them manage their emotions, which leads to more moderate behavior, which results in a more successful life
Think of the guy who goes out for a smoke rather than argue with his boss and maybe lose his job.
If that guy was a reformed smoker, who had used an e-cig to quit smoking, and then had eventually given up the e-cig, what is he going to do at this moment of extreme stress and emotion?
We might hope he would do some deep breathing. Or maybe he'd walk around the block. Maybe he'd run four times around the block. It takes quite a bit of running to achieve the calm that a cigarette provides.
I think probably he would walk across the street to that little store. And I think he's more likely to find a pack of cigarettes in that store than an e-cig.
And we might consider this a bad outcome, because he's smoking, and smoking is really bad for you. But he still has his job. Losing your job is bad and the consequences are much more immediate than the consequences of smoking.
So what I'm saying is that you need to know who you are. Is smoking just a bad habit or is it a tool that helped you manage your life? For me nicotine is a tool. I suspect that it is for you too.
I think it's fine if you're able to use your e-cig less and less until you're not using it at all. I just also think you should keep it in your pocket, so that when you want a cigarette you have a choice.
I hope it goes well for you
