I can relate to and feel your pain...
My family has been surviving on my SSDI for the last 3yrs and 6+mos now although DH's disability hearing was last week; hwr, they have as high as 120 days to make their determination. The judge's cardiology specialist was such a downer and didn't read the reports correctly while the judge's other two specialists agreed he was disabled. The cardiologist (paid for by SSA & used by SSA, which makes me question his ethnics and his loyalties and whether those loyalties are to the judge & SSA or to the people who truly need help; so far, I am only seeing loyalties to the judge and SSA, which upsets me to now end). The cardiology specialist the judge called in dismissed the fact that my husband's lost 15% of his heart's capacity to damage following the moderate & then massive heart attacks he suffered on top of a mild stroke all of which warranted his undergoing a cardiac catherization that showed so much damage it left no alternative but for him to undergo a quadruple heart bypass surgery, which did repair a lot of damage but there's more that wasn't able to repair; for a diabetic of 45yrs, this is not good news. It lessens the amount of oxygenated blood from making it to the extremities and staving off infection or areas where the tissue in the extremities can begin to die from lack of enough oxygen. This information was readily available to the judge but he appeared to dismiss it as easily as his side-kick the supposed unaligned cardiologist who gets his paycheck from the US citizens! A 15% drop in heart usage would slow someone without heart conditions and diabetes down a bit but in someone with autoimmune diseases, which type I (juvenile) diabetes is now listed among them. For a type I diabetic, it can be dangerous and extremely debilitating not to mention deadly. Dh is in a depressive mood and angry he can't work, which makes him feel as if he is less of a man in my eyes, which couldn't be further from the truth. I knew from the first moment I saw him - the first time he winked those beautiful Cerulean blue eyes at me with that blond ringlets of curls hanging down his shoulders that I was in love. Although, if someone had told me the day we officially met that years into the future he would look at me with more than a teasing glance and we would later marry, have children, and remain married for some 2 decades, I'd have told them they were crazy.
The day I learned he truly loved me and wanted to carve out a life for us together was one of the happiest days of my life so no matter what happens or how many times we have to appeal, we will do it b/c I am not losing him to the next heart attack when his cardo-thoracic surgeon has made it clear that another one can and likely will cost him his life and when his life is gone, where will that leave my own? I'll have our girls of course but I can't imagine ever looking at another man that way I've looked upon him and feel so totally in love even when we were at each other's throats on the verge of "spousicide" considering we married a combination of ourselves that are cut from flip-sides of a coin that are as different as night and day and yet we work well together for the most part. He just can't handle not being able to contribute to the family income as he has from the day we began dating, through our engagement even though I made him promise not to buy me a diamond b/c I felt they were a waste of money & would jinx what we had and I wasn't ready to lose it. We even eloped to cut costs and regardless, we were around dear friends I'd made in the courthouse - the same friends he had come to know and make on his own so he trusted them as much as I did and accepted without question their warm wishes and long lives together.
My disability check has to cover all the bills but I do what I can to scrimp and save a bit back to get my e-liquid and cartos though it's not easy all time but I try my best and it's got it through this long so we can go longer if needed.
Personally, I cannot wait to start trying the Alpha Project Products but my purchases will have to come at the first of the month or within the first 2 weeks so I can assure I have enough to cover the bills first along with the groceries. The mortgage is the first to pay out so it's never been late, not in the 17yrs we have had our mortgage on our home; it may not agree with the beliefs of others but I don't care. It is one thing I have managed to do that I truly feel pride at being able to do this for our family. It goes out first before anything else. I'm not even sure if pride is a strong enough word for how I feel when it comes to having had the ability to never be late not one time in all these years...
But I digress...
If I can save enough out of the other little odd jobs I pick up, I want to begin helping check out the new products in the Alpha Program. I'm glad to be part of the group for GV and I hope that whatever I can contribute is worth while and able to help others the way so many of you here and among the E-Cig companies have helped me. It's my way to "pay it forward," I guess you could say.
Here's hoping we do a great job, provide as much information as possible to those who require it, and build this program into something that can be counted on for whatever type of product manages to make it our way.
Warmest regards and best of wishes to you all,
Paise
My family has been surviving on my SSDI for the last 3yrs and 6+mos now although DH's disability hearing was last week; hwr, they have as high as 120 days to make their determination. The judge's cardiology specialist was such a downer and didn't read the reports correctly while the judge's other two specialists agreed he was disabled. The cardiologist (paid for by SSA & used by SSA, which makes me question his ethnics and his loyalties and whether those loyalties are to the judge & SSA or to the people who truly need help; so far, I am only seeing loyalties to the judge and SSA, which upsets me to now end). The cardiology specialist the judge called in dismissed the fact that my husband's lost 15% of his heart's capacity to damage following the moderate & then massive heart attacks he suffered on top of a mild stroke all of which warranted his undergoing a cardiac catherization that showed so much damage it left no alternative but for him to undergo a quadruple heart bypass surgery, which did repair a lot of damage but there's more that wasn't able to repair; for a diabetic of 45yrs, this is not good news. It lessens the amount of oxygenated blood from making it to the extremities and staving off infection or areas where the tissue in the extremities can begin to die from lack of enough oxygen. This information was readily available to the judge but he appeared to dismiss it as easily as his side-kick the supposed unaligned cardiologist who gets his paycheck from the US citizens! A 15% drop in heart usage would slow someone without heart conditions and diabetes down a bit but in someone with autoimmune diseases, which type I (juvenile) diabetes is now listed among them. For a type I diabetic, it can be dangerous and extremely debilitating not to mention deadly. Dh is in a depressive mood and angry he can't work, which makes him feel as if he is less of a man in my eyes, which couldn't be further from the truth. I knew from the first moment I saw him - the first time he winked those beautiful Cerulean blue eyes at me with that blond ringlets of curls hanging down his shoulders that I was in love. Although, if someone had told me the day we officially met that years into the future he would look at me with more than a teasing glance and we would later marry, have children, and remain married for some 2 decades, I'd have told them they were crazy.
The day I learned he truly loved me and wanted to carve out a life for us together was one of the happiest days of my life so no matter what happens or how many times we have to appeal, we will do it b/c I am not losing him to the next heart attack when his cardo-thoracic surgeon has made it clear that another one can and likely will cost him his life and when his life is gone, where will that leave my own? I'll have our girls of course but I can't imagine ever looking at another man that way I've looked upon him and feel so totally in love even when we were at each other's throats on the verge of "spousicide" considering we married a combination of ourselves that are cut from flip-sides of a coin that are as different as night and day and yet we work well together for the most part. He just can't handle not being able to contribute to the family income as he has from the day we began dating, through our engagement even though I made him promise not to buy me a diamond b/c I felt they were a waste of money & would jinx what we had and I wasn't ready to lose it. We even eloped to cut costs and regardless, we were around dear friends I'd made in the courthouse - the same friends he had come to know and make on his own so he trusted them as much as I did and accepted without question their warm wishes and long lives together.
My disability check has to cover all the bills but I do what I can to scrimp and save a bit back to get my e-liquid and cartos though it's not easy all time but I try my best and it's got it through this long so we can go longer if needed.
Personally, I cannot wait to start trying the Alpha Project Products but my purchases will have to come at the first of the month or within the first 2 weeks so I can assure I have enough to cover the bills first along with the groceries. The mortgage is the first to pay out so it's never been late, not in the 17yrs we have had our mortgage on our home; it may not agree with the beliefs of others but I don't care. It is one thing I have managed to do that I truly feel pride at being able to do this for our family. It goes out first before anything else. I'm not even sure if pride is a strong enough word for how I feel when it comes to having had the ability to never be late not one time in all these years...
But I digress...
If I can save enough out of the other little odd jobs I pick up, I want to begin helping check out the new products in the Alpha Program. I'm glad to be part of the group for GV and I hope that whatever I can contribute is worth while and able to help others the way so many of you here and among the E-Cig companies have helped me. It's my way to "pay it forward," I guess you could say.
Here's hoping we do a great job, provide as much information as possible to those who require it, and build this program into something that can be counted on for whatever type of product manages to make it our way.
Warmest regards and best of wishes to you all,
Paise
