I just slept for 18 hrs and I will get to that, It was awesome but I can't quite catch up Heh,
I had one of them boxy old green Volvos and the alternator kept dying. It was really annoying because no mechanic could figure it out. I finally got rid of it. YEAH Volvos are like indestructible except when you hit, oh 230K you have to replace EVERYTHING and parts and labor are not cheap.
I will say I owned a Saab, I forget the model the one everyone had, I forget. I loved that car and it got totaled JUST after the parents like, gifted me it, and I was waiting to turn left, totally not in motion, JUST leaving getting my emissions test done. Some kid in a jeep was going 200 miles an hour and it was (rarely) snowy and like, flipped over onto like a mom with kids and she got pushed into me.
The kid died instantly it was an OPEN jeep, so it was rather gory. I was actually more traumatized by the poor mom. BOTH her kids were like bleeding and like after the shock faded like, she was crying and screaming and stuff, and saying, "Oh GOD HELP ME." I wasn't even a mom yet but I was just like Jesus H. Christ and called 911 before my car even stopped moving. I could see it would be a BAD scene and it was. I wound up kind of shocky on the curb asking my dad if he could come get me because the car was undrivable. It was the first times someone like, died right in front of me. Mom and kids were okay.
So the insurance company totaled it despite my begging everyone to like, let me just fix it myself I *loved* that car.
Holy bejesus, though I got that application in sorta . I will say it was one of the best resumes I have ever made, and it is now saved forever in USA government jobs. But I was just like "THIS CANNOT be the only federal job" and it turned out I had some really weird filter on there so I removed it and there are jobs for me EVERYWHERE. It was so DAMN relieving I MUST say and I think I screwed up anyway because you get preference if you have worked for the Feds in any capacity and I worked for the NIH out of college, and like, it was gene sequencing though and stuff and well, IDK. I'm NOT as stressed out though and in a few days I am going to comb THE site, and see what else would be useful like uploading transcripts I don't have and figuring out the NIH thing and whatnot.
But I should most certainly be able to go someplace, and even if it winds up being North Dakota (although I will try to avoid that) we will not be in Arizona. I will be very selective in my search though I do NOT want to wind up where I am now, amen and hallelujah.
I will also say Federal SW jobs tend to be more reasonable as far as work required. There is even a separate disability track and this gives you points sometimes.... it's the oddest system.
The husband is part native and that gives you a JILLIION points. He has told me repeatedly that he has heard "anyone" can join the TO tribe, although it may be an exaggeration honestly although tribes like do enjoy swelling their numbers. Spouse of Indian will give me many points.
Yes, indeed and I am sure I will wind up doing ALL the research on that. But whatever.
I feel less stressed as hell now, and honestly, I do not care at the moment. I had a doc appointment and he sent me all this sleep hygiene crap I mean I don't blame him and yes I TRY to practice it but JEEZ when you are manic, you are manic, and that is About It.
Yoga and calling the boy are like, all I plan to do I hurt ALL over from working on that application. That's what made me submit in any case, I mean HELL and damnation I worked SO hard and fast I was like "I WILL apply" dang it. But now I feel more chill.
Anna