I am almost afraid to say it on this thread, but I have never once vaped cheesecake. My tiny silver mini is so cute, maybe it needs cheesecake but I ain't steeping for 4 months, nu uh. GOD knows where we will be. I got a text this a.m. I guess that website gets much scrutiny and like an invitation to like GO to Germany for a lovely jaunt with the army. No thanks. I have German relatives and well, the only good reason to GO there would be so my husband could experience like being surrounded by his personality type and watch him go insane. Of course, I would be surrounded too, so I would ALSO go insane but well it is nice to get invitations places.
I talked to my kid, Swear to God we used to be able to talk about ANYTHING and like now we can't. I have found relative who are like INSANELY liberal to be hard to talk to and it gets worse the longer he stays with my mom and CO it's frustrating. So like, I could not discuss the COVID with him. He is all happy because he now makes more than when he was working on unemployment. I told him that sucked. He wasn't very happy. I also tried to explain to him, when you lose EVERYTHIGN as a youth after moving twice in month, it is unpleasant. I also explained I am at the age where if I do not land, move, and find a place that ain't psycho, well, I'm getting OLD. I need a STOCK portfolio not platitudes on thinking positively. I also told him with the way the government is going I am GOING to have to work for them, but because it will be the only way to make any MONEY at all. In any case, I was annoyed.
So then I called my mom and tried to talk about it. She was like ,"But it's so great! The kid gets unemployment and it's more than he makes!" I told her that was NOT great and it SHOULD not happen and will not, even for me I am certain, because frankly if you make laziness MORE appealing than working well, I reminded her of what happened in England and Australia. I told her it was a communistic message and I hate it although I love my kid .I also told her, consistently, the periods in my life where I WAS NOT working ,even if not on the stupid worthless novel but I WORKED hard, I learned, etc. but the times I was just... not working sucked and I wished the politicians would stop turning my kid into a commie because I DON'T LIKE THEM. She was like, "Well I just think it shows everyone should make more." I was like "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD MOM are you high? That child has been offered management in every job he has BEEN at and he has been to "uppity" about it and turned it down and this is a talented kid with no education who would actually be GOOD at it so NO I don't feel he deserves a raise he could have GOTTEN one any time he WISHED."
Oh well he will have to learn.
So then I told her about my work. She was remarkably un-outraged for a woman of her indigo persuasion she was just like "Well did you get it sorted out?" and I was like "WHOA so maybe I should have just gotten on UNEMPLOYMENT to gain THRIPPLE my employment wage or whatever?"
Anyway I got a Sufi prayer about NM but it was halfhearted at best. She told me the "worst" estimates were in NY where 20% of folks are COVID positive. I asked her how the death rate could be HIGHER than that number then and I also said I had NO PROBLEM reading CDC crap but I read so many fact sheets that were PURE crap, I had no trust for them and it never hurts to have information from more than ONE government sponsored source. She was like, "I don't want to talk about COVID and I was like "Mom I am talking OVER a year ago vaping and other stuff." I told her if I followed "Their" health advice I would have gunned down my family on Chantix or actually BE a COVID statistic on my oxygen tank. Sheesh.
I told her the happiest day of my life was when I stopped listening to NPR because she also did in the car and I had this deep relief like "I will die and perhaps even TODAY but at least I don't need to hear about the how and why." I also told her starving to death was like, as far as I KNEW a 100% fatality rate and she was like "Oh it will take a few months, but then it will get better." I was like lady you are WACK.
She probably is. I think it is Ramadan again so she can only eat 6 out of 24 hours. She gets a drinking dispensation because she has IC, but MAN it was frustrating!
Sorry for all the talk I am not saying I am RIGHT OR WRONG but it's just amazing to me how hard it is to even TALK about some things, and it's distressing. I used to talk to my kid about ANYTHING and now he is like, "Mom I do not want to talk to you about THAT" every five seconds and it is really disheartening. It really is. I don't need for you to agree with me but like not even open to TALK? IF you know it ALL why not DO some extra research. I mean, it's NOT going to hurt if you are so RIGHT RIGHT? Arg,
I give up you'd think the indigoed hued lady would have been all mad about my FMLA I think that is a government social program but well.
Then I did yoga for the first time in a week I think. I was creaky but I felt So much better, endorphin wise, I am doing it 6 days a week from now on. Also making a Monday to do list. Etc.
Anna