I am clean. So is most of my bathroom thanks to a mere offhand comment the husband made about it needing cleaning. Since the best time to clean the bathtub is (mostly) right before you bathe and the little bit left over you can do while you wait for your henna to stop bleeding turban like around your head, and the you hose down the remainder of the bathtub followed by your feet.
I did not enjoy it while it was happening but I DO now it has occurred .
It's just really unfortunate when you are then all tired to plop yourself down on the couch, reach for your
vape, and read "low battery" and THE ULTIMATE worst is when you try to change the battery but actually put the same one in and you are like, "A bit weird, what that one's doing in the charger well, I don't know and sit down turn on the vape and get the same message.
But well I at least can say: I did SOMETHING several somethings if you like, count the job applications. But eh, I guess I don't.
Tonight is Laila night (that is my Sufi name too) it's basically "LOVE SHEER LOVE." Don't sweat it it's not as great as it sounds. Lailas love everything and that means they're extremists and emotionalists, even as they are HATING you hard, ooh they are loving it. Also all that substance abuse stuff, it's all sheer love of the substance. You think I'm gonna drink like I did because I went into DTs or anything else? NOPE I loved it until it sucked and now I no longer do. Also, Lailas be like .....in' but I have met a ton and they are not ALWAYS the brightest tools in the shed, at least when it comes to logic and behavior. I think I am one of the more logical and certainly smart Lailas I know, but you have to factor in like, the heavy duty psychotropic meds. Without, not too bright.
BUT Anyway this night of Ramadan is like the time to say a quick prayer of mercy forgiveness of godly love and then pray for all your hopes and dreams but like, IDK. I have some hopes and dreams, one of which includes being Cleopatra for example but I'm not gonna implement it but I want a place I can
buy a home and place I can be happy .I told my mom about the CO job, she said she would pray for it, but it appeared (to me) there was a slightly hesitancy in her tone.
She mighta just been cranky dude ,she has to stay up ALL NIGHT for full effectiveness. I don't but because I'm sick. Otherwise, I am supposed to PRAY all night long on this fine night, but let's FACE it even the MILDEST Muslim contains streaks of extremism, I mean I think it is great to pray but there were certain times during all night jaunts where I was like, "Holly Mackerel Anna, if God were to answer right now he'd be all "I HEARD YOU THE FIRST TIME SHUT UP AND LET ME SLEEP."
But anywhoo, if you go some praying to do, it is a decent night to do it or so I hear.
Also clean is good.
Anna