Thanks so much for being here. As I said in my introductory, I feel so alone in this. I'm tired and I have to quit smoking if I ever want to retire. I've been a hairdresser for 43 years and can NEVER stop working if I continue to smoke. I spend over $500.00 a month on cigarettes. Add the beginning stages of Copd. If I don't quit, I won't be here to complain about anything. (trying to Lol)
Isn't it funny, as good as I did yesterday, I woke up this morning with a dread that I had to do this again today? Chain smoking is who I am. Deep, deep down, I don't want to give up smoking. But yet I do??? It's so crazy making!! I'm so tired of this curse. I need to create a new identity somehow? I would be so proud to be a non-smoker.
Yesterday, I went 10 minutes without smoking when I woke up.... but today I've already had 2. As soon as I read the thread, I wanted to start again. So I will put this one out and grab the vape and start over. I want so much to conquer this.Thank you all so much for being here. When I get a little time today, I am going to spend it reading through this thread because I know you all have struggled like me and that will help me to know I am not alone.
Is it true that you must keep yourself busy? I could sure do some cleaning of closets and stuff. I'm so glad you're all here. (hugs) to every one of you today!
Thanks so much for being here. As I said in my introductory, I feel so alone in this. I'm tired and I have to quit smoking if I ever want to retire. I've been a hairdresser for 43 years and can NEVER stop working if I continue to smoke. I spend over $500.00 a month on cigarettes. Add the beginning stages of Copd. If I don't quit, I won't be here to complain about anything. (trying to Lol)
Isn't it funny, as good as I did yesterday, I woke up this morning with a dread that I had to do this again today? Chain smoking is who I am. Deep, deep down, I don't want to give up smoking. But yet I do??? It's so crazy making!! I'm so tired of this curse. I need to create a new identity somehow? I would be so proud to be a non-smoker.
Yesterday, I went 10 minutes without smoking when I woke up.... but today I've already had 2. As soon as I read the thread, I wanted to start again. So I will put this one out and grab the vape and start over. I want so much to conquer this.Thank you all so much for being here. When I get a little time today, I am going to spend it reading through this thread because I know you all have struggled like me and that will help me to know I am not alone.
Is it true that you must keep yourself busy? I could sure do some cleaning of closets and stuff. I'm so glad you're all here. (hugs) to every one of you today!
I want to share with you something that worked for me.
In order to give yourself further incentive to quit and in order to begin looking at vaping as a positive thing instead of that negative thing your doing to quit smoking, you should try rewarding yourself for those cigarettes you don't smoke..
At the end of the first three days I took what I saved from not buying smokes and bought myself something I wanted.. my savings was $30.00... at the end the first week I took the savings and bought myself another something I wanted.. my reward for not smoking..
I was saving 10.00 per day every day I vaped.. and I looked forward to my little shopping trips...all week I would daydream about what I was going to do with the savings, and vape my way toward the reward.
I got pedicures, new shoes, new camera, new lenses, books I wanted.. I had so much fun vaping my way into stuff I wanted that one day I realized what I didn't want anymore was a cigarette.
Is it easy? Heck no.. there were times i was physically shaking I wanted a cigarette so bad and I chain vaped hardcore..
But those positive thoughts and positive associations with things that are in reach - a book or something small if you make it through the day, a pair of shoes if you make it three days - give you something within reach that you can attain, it's easier to think about right now than it is to think about retiring someday...
Now is in reach, and when you keep the now very positive the associations with vaping turns into a happy positive thing.. better than smoking because you never got to reward yourself with smoking.. lol.
It does actually help I think.. it helped me a lot...