Andri exactly, that is exactly what I did! Haha
Tim yay good job!
Very stressful few days over but still doing awesome!
Tim yay good job!
Very stressful few days over but still doing awesome!
Andri exactly, that is exactly what I did! Haha
This last time around, when I found myself doing that, I knew it was time to give the cigarettes the heave-ho again, since I clearly had brought myself back to appreciating the taste of vaping a lot more than the taste of smoking -- that's why I went ahead and quit even though I was still at 5 a day; those 5 were more compulsion than actual desire, and also I wanted to shut up that 3 yr old in my head -- "is it time?" "Is it time NOW?" "How about NOW?!?!" -- with "how about NEVER, you whining BRAT!" Andria, so awesome! Wow has it been that long already? Time just flew by..
Great job, seriously! Almost to a new mark! Keep it up girl!
Am still doing good myself! I think I need to change some flavors though, since I am almost chain vaping I get used to the flavors and and my taste buds are screaming at me!
yeah, freezing things works pretty well. freeze unused food.. freeze hard drives for an attempt at one last data pull before the drive is really gone.. freezing metal.. getting tongue stuck to spoon forgotten in ice cream box...
i cant sleep.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b95oyhSd5ls this is what keeps going through my head lol.
Im about to try it again myself but have developed some kind of insomnia. I am not quite at Edward Norton tier insomnia but this scene makes SO much more sense to me now. I am probably 75% there.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykdmnS-MtXI
Some nights I can. But most nights lately I don't. Gonna lay down and try it again. One of three things will happen. 1) I'll actually pass out, which happened a couple days ago. 2) I will fall asleep and wake back up in 30-60 minutes, in which case is a toss of the dice as to whether I will awaken refreshed or more groggy than I am at present. or 3) my eyes will pop open as soon as my head hits the pillow.
I like that about the hard drive though.
I've suffered SOOOOOOOOOOOO much insomnia in my life, I can completely relate. Have you tried sleeping on the couch? For a while, I simply could NOT fall asleep in bed, but I'd lie down on the couch just 'cause I was so tired, and be out like a light. I called it my "sneaking up on a nap" strategy.Whatever works, right?
Andria
Good idea. I might try the floor though. sometimes I like sleeping on the floor. As you said, whatever works right. At present, I am just kind of excited to overcome this and make it work for me. I am suspect with all the changes in my life lately, this might be an ongoing thing. So there is a part of me that wants to figure out how to discipline myself and my mind to be able to function. Honestly, when we were young, we would stay up all night and work the next day. Our minds were excited about something. And we were able to function. So it IS possible. I did finally zonk out at about 3:30 and woke up at 8:30. Not bad, I think. Five hours isn't bad. Better than the three or four I have been getting this week.
I used to polyphase. That is a sleeping strategy where you end up sleeping about 2 hours a day but trick your mind into getting the rest it needs. (Your body doesn't but you manipulate biology a little to make sure you get sufficient REM for your brain's sake.) Anyways, long story short, I know it is manageable. Just still adjusting and this week has been in that all day half-awak/half-asleep. I dont mind being up until 4am and getting up at 7, as long as I can make some kind of progress during my awake time.
He had a sleep study done, and the doc said, "do you know you move about 20 times an hour?" And my husband said "yes, because my wife times me, as she's trying to go to sleep, and says I jump every 3 minutes."
Considering the 3am screaming matches, we really did our marriage a favor by moving to separate bedrooms... but I still hate it. But even when I think, well maybe he doesn't do that anymore, and try to sleep with him... I end up going back to my own bed a few hours later, because it's either that or suffocate him with a pillow! My major problems with sleeping have been a) suffering from anxiety disorders for most of my life; b) being a "night-owl" by nature; and c) having, I strongly suspect, a longer-than-24-hr diurnal cycle; mine seems to be more like 28-30 hrs. For many years I solved it by sleeping in "shifts" -- get to bed about 3am; get up at 6:30am to get the kid ready and breakfasted and off to school; go back to bed around 10am and sleep till 3pm-ish, so I was awake when the kid got off the school bus. In effect, my "nap" was at night, and my main sleep in the daytime, and that worked for me, because I've never had a problem going to sleep for a nap, so when I'd get to bed about 3am, I'd tell myself, time for a nice little nap before I have to get the kid going; then at 10am, it was daytime so it *seemed* like a nap, even though it was my longer, main sleep.
Once the kid grew up and I didn't have to do the mommy morning thing anymore, it took a few years, but now I can go to bed at 3am and sleep straight thru till 11 or 12 -- it's like being on vacation or something.
As for being able to sleep the same as when you were "young"... to that I'd say "dream on" -- pun intended.Sleep is very different for mature bodies, and seems to be an ever-changing phenomenon. I will say though, that from my reading on the subject, chronic insomnia is actually a major health problem, which can have long-term and enduring negative ramifications. When you're sleeping, your body, and particularly your brain, is doing some important metabolic things, and without a sufficient number of hours, toxins build up and cause damage, and the effects of that damage actually shorten lives considerably, and even without considering the shortening of a life, that sort of damage also leads to very negative things like geriatric dementia -- senility. As you age, you may not need quite as many hours of sleep as growing bodies need, but if you don't get enough, you really are doing your whole body, and particularly your brain, a massive disservice. For anyone past 30-35, 6 hrs in every 24 is considered a minimum necessary; more would be better, but not as necessary as to young growing bodies.
Probably the best thing I ever did for my sleep, is also one of the most disappointing things in my life: my husband and I can no longer share not only a bed, but even a bedROOM; he snores like a freight train going 60mph, and jumps and wiggles all night long -- it's like being married to a jack-in-the-box that pops up every 3 minutes.He had a sleep study done, and the doc said, "do you know you move about 20 times an hour?" And my husband said "yes, because my wife times me, as she's trying to go to sleep, and says I jump every 3 minutes."
Considering the 3am screaming matches, we really did our marriage a favor by moving to separate bedrooms... but I still hate it. But even when I think, well maybe he doesn't do that anymore, and try to sleep with him... I end up going back to my own bed a few hours later, because it's either that or suffocate him with a pillow!
Andria
Some historically important person (Einstein perhaps?) used that sleeping briefly every 6 hours schedule. You actually get to live more of your life that way instead of sleeping through 25%-30% of it... assuming you don't eventually pass out in your Cheerios.![]()
It's funny that you mention that it's not as psychedelic as that particular substance, because most of the actual hallucinations I've suffered have been from lack of sleep, not substances. When I used to suffer a lot with depression, I often had marathon wakefulness -- 63 hrs one time -- and I'd start to see the little black creeping things in my peripheral vision.
Andria
Yeah, it censored it but I meant to say Tee Ach See. But I know what you are saying though. I didn't get it that bad. Then again, I didn't go 63 hours with no sleep.
One thing I found if you are going to polyphase (or just facing insomnia) is that it helps to have stuff to do at your normal sleeping time. You may not be able to sleep, but some part of your brain is geared to sleep at that time. So I found that when I would normally have my deepest sleep is when I would struggle the most. It helped to have stuff to do to keep moving. Amazing how the body responds when you focus it on something. ONly thing is you can't have anything too mentally engaging at first. Save mindless chores through the day for when you are at the sleepiest but sleepless part of the night. I am remembering that and using it to my advantage.
Andria, you did bring up before about HALT. I have been very conscious of the T part (tired) this last week. I have been doing really good vaping. Except for those two slips, one on the 6th and one on the 7th, I haven't smoked since the 5th. Thank God, I haven't had any real bad cravings since the tiredness came on me. But your words helped me mentally prepare myself.
I am keeping my eRoll handy with WTA, and getting that "cigarette" feel both chemically and physically/habit-side-of-smoking.
Also got to get a new vaping convert today.
Close friend of mine was visiting today. I had been talking to him about vaping for a while. He tried a BT/convenient store ecig. He liked it but not enough to be sold on it. So after talking him up here and there over the last month and sellling him on vaping, I PIF'd him my old eGo-C system (battery, cone, attys and tanks/cartridges) and a bottle of juice. Seems he is really gonna get on it this time.
Now I just grab a snack, but that time of day was always a huge trigger for me -- by sundown, most days, most people are probably at least hungry and tired, so bang, instant craving.
Also it was my very first exposure to the online world, with amateur BBS's in Pontiac, MI, circa 1990. So at least I had something instructive and entertaining to do! That's great about your friend! That HALT thing was always really handy for me, early in sobriety; when I'd get a craving, I'd take a little inventory and figure out exactly what was going on that triggered the craving, and it was nearly always something in HALT -- and do you know, sometimes at sundown, I still get that old feeling -- happy hour.Now I just grab a snack, but that time of day was always a huge trigger for me -- by sundown, most days, most people are probably at least hungry and tired, so bang, instant craving.
That 63 hr gig was a really bad phase in post-partum depression; hormonal mayhem plus new parent anxiety. You know what I was doing, for almost the entire 63 hrs (when I wasn't doing baby duty, that is)? Learning MS-DOS, and writing unbelievably complex batch files.Also it was my very first exposure to the online world, with amateur BBS's in Pontiac, MI, circa 1990. So at least I had something instructive and entertaining to do!
Andria
Well a week ago tonight (last night since its after midnight? ) I got my sigelei box mod and 4 raffle tickets to win one of every bottle of juice in store or a mech mod/rda/ drip tip. I won the mech mod kit. Will post pictures later. Girlfriend didn't think I would win. Probably would have won the cloud comp if they drew the raffle first so I had a mech to use. .. wouldn't let me use my sigelei![]()