Heather's Heavenly Vapes - THE BIG THREAD (Part 6)

[Hulamoon]

The most deadly animal in Alaska to humans is not a lynx, or wolverine, or black bear, or grizzly. It's the moose.

I'd think it would be other humans myself.... When I lived in the back woods of the waaaaay beyond, moose and caribou were very common. Used to wander round the lawn in front of my house. Was never a problem - but I knew better than to go out there in the spring if I saw them that close about.

 

[ShowMeTwice]

Hi @MostlySunny , thinking of you!!!

 

[Hulamoon]

SMT - what a wonderful post. Inspirational and caring. Thank you so much. There's nothing like a major life event to make one realize what's really critical and what can and should be blown away by a small breeze. I'm so sorry to hear about your wife passing away and will be thinking of you especially tomorrow.

 

[LAwaters]

@LAwaters @Bronze @Opinionated and well everyone else…may I please I say something?

I am the new kid around here vs all of you as I recently moved into your neighborhood so I do hope my voice isn't taken the wrong way. But if they are please lets talk…all I ask. I am NOT trying to come off as preachy in any way or form or anything like that. Though perhaps one may read it that way but I have NO such intent.

On any forum I have been a part of, at times, it is truthfully hard to really get the temperature, or the vibe, others are trying to communicate. The honest meaning and/or intent (if any). This isn't like we would all be if we were face-to-face communicating. Therein lies the rub. If we were all together we would be getting that all so vital instant feedback which is crucial to all communications. We don't get that online. Although if we were facetiming I don't know that I would have liked you all to have seen that glob of toothpaste I had on my face this morning that I didn't notice for a bit!

On any forum it's so easy for misfires to happen because this is still a relatively new form of communication for all of us loony humans. We've all seen it and been a part of 'stuff'. I know I have (insert visual of SMT smacking himself upside the head). Each of us has been in 'that place'. But that's ok.

Communications. When my wife and I first met, first date, we talked for a long time about relationships and what works and what doesn't. Together we agreed solid honest communications must be the foundation for all to follow. Both of us worked hard to live that for almost 39 years until last year tomorrow when she met the Great Spirit. Communications isn't always pretty, man I know that all too well, but I also know it takes hard work and a willingness to get it right. That is where the reset button lies.

I do believe at heart we all want to get it right and I've learned that I usually get into big trouble when I think with my brain versus my heart.

Seriously we're all just human trying to make the best of what's on our plates and the grace of you know who knows exactly what is on each of our plates. We all got "stuff" and heaven knows we all have more baggage than at times we can carry…but the new day comes as fresh opportunity. So I say with love in heart, come on now, I've met some super beautiful people here and it saddens me when stuff like this happens. I understand 'stuff' happens and that's ok as long as we try again. Right?

Here is a beautiful loving song…it is each of us…listen to the lyrics, feel them. It's you and me together…or we fail as one and I refuse that option!!! There is just too much division nowadays. To some extent we are all guilty of this…we fail to speak up when we should…we look the other way and more…that is not love…it is not natural. We are more alike than we allow ourselves to believe.



Can you believe I first heard that on ESPN?!?!?
When my wife and I first heard this song we had tears flowing, not one or two, many.

I am Human and I am all emotions…powerful. Perfect? No f-ing way but I strive daily for better than yesterday. I look at life as learning…I am forever its student…first and foremost. Keeps me humble.

I look at things like this...when one fails, we all fail. I won't accept that. Thinking from the heart. Love.

I really hesitated to post this for some time. Then I thought "SMT this is you and how you feel" just do it!!!

This is beautifully stated, heartfelt and words of wisdom. Thank you for taking the time to write it out. I agree that this is a strange new form of communication. Without visual cues, it’s ripe for misunderstanding. The anonymity unfortunately can bring out the worst in us all. We need to do our best to resist. We are so very human!

I’m extremely glad you’ve joined our little corner of the internetz here.

And I’m so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful wife. It’s clear you had a loving relationship, and I know that’s all too rare. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[LAwaters]

I'd think it would be other humans myself.... When I lived in the back woods of the waaaaay beyond, moose and caribou were very common. Used to wander round the lawn in front of my house. Was never a problem - but I knew better than to go out there in the spring if I saw them that close about.

The recurring theme in Stephen King’s works! Humans as the ones to truly fear. I wish that wasn’t true, but it really can be the case.

 

[ShowMeTwice]

Humans as the ones to truly fear. I wish that wasn’t true, but it really can be the case.

No...no fear!!! No matter what happens upon our beautiful Mother Earth...no fear. Fear is a human creation to which I cannot subscribe. Fear is what has gotten humanity into way too many messes (I read the news today oh boy). Fear can be un-learned.

To my human sisters and brothers, everywhere, only love. Some may snicker and say "what about THEM over there who'd kill you" (I've heard that many times) and I say at heart they still want the same as most. Naive of me? No, I don't think so. It's the whole "them or us" mentality that's gotten us to where we are today.

Thing is I was this way even B4 the events of last year. This is the real SMT!

Lennon was right IMO...


True equality IMHO really would not be that hard to achieve 4 all......women, the races and on and on. Take some down & dirty but it is, like many things, doable.

 

[Bronze]

@LAwaters @Bronze @Opinionated and well everyone else…may I please I say something?

I am the new kid around here vs all of you as I recently moved into your neighborhood so I do hope my voice isn't taken the wrong way. But if they are please lets talk…all I ask. I am NOT trying to come off as preachy in any way or form or anything like that. Though perhaps one may read it that way but I have NO such intent.

On any forum I have been a part of, at times, it is truthfully hard to really get the temperature, or the vibe, others are trying to communicate. The honest meaning and/or intent (if any). This isn't like we would all be if we were face-to-face communicating. Therein lies the rub. If we were all together we would be getting that all so vital instant feedback which is crucial to all communications. We don't get that online. Although if we were facetiming I don't know that I would have liked you all to have seen that glob of toothpaste I had on my face this morning that I didn't notice for a bit!

On any forum it's so easy for misfires to happen because this is still a relatively new form of communication for all of us loony humans. We've all seen it and been a part of 'stuff'. I know I have (insert visual of SMT smacking himself upside the head). Each of us has been in 'that place'. But that's ok.

Communications. When my wife and I first met, first date, we talked for a long time about relationships and what works and what doesn't. Together we agreed solid honest communications must be the foundation for all to follow. Both of us worked hard to live that for almost 39 years until last year tomorrow when she met the Great Spirit. Communications isn't always pretty, man I know that all too well, but I also know it takes hard work and a willingness to get it right. That is where the reset button lies.

I do believe at heart we all want to get it right and I've learned that I usually get into big trouble when I think with my brain versus my heart.

Seriously we're all just human trying to make the best of what's on our plates and the grace of you know who knows exactly what is on each of our plates. We all got "stuff" and heaven knows we all have more baggage than at times we can carry…but the new day comes as fresh opportunity. So I say with love in heart, come on now, I've met some super beautiful people here and it saddens me when stuff like this happens. I understand 'stuff' happens and that's ok as long as we try again. Right?

Here is a beautiful loving song…it is each of us…listen to the lyrics, feel them. It's you and me together…or we fail as one and I refuse that option!!! There is just too much division nowadays. To some extent we are all guilty of this…we fail to speak up when we should…we look the other way and more…that is not love…it is not natural. We are more alike than we allow ourselves to believe.



Can you believe I first heard that on ESPN?!?!?
When my wife and I first heard this song we had tears flowing, not one or two, many.

I am Human and I am all emotions…powerful. Perfect? No f-ing way but I strive daily for better than yesterday. I look at life as learning…I am forever its student…first and foremost. Keeps me humble.

I look at things like this...when one fails, we all fail. I won't accept that. Thinking from the heart. Love.

I really hesitated to post this for some time. Then I thought "SMT this is you and how you feel" just do it!!!

If it matters, we just surpassed 154,000 posts (and 6 years n 8 months) on this thread...one of the largest ECF has seen. Of these 154,000 I'd say maybe 12 (yes, 12) were contentious. What you just saw earlier is as rare as it gets here. This cannot be said on other threads.

Spend time tomorrow seeing your wife smiling. She'd want you to.

 

[LAwaters]

No...no fear!!! No matter what happens upon our beautiful Mother Earth...no fear. Fear is a human creation to which I cannot subscribe. Fear is what has gotten humanity into way too many messes (I read the news today oh boy). Fear can be un-learned.

To my human sisters and brothers, everywhere, only love. Some may snicker and say "what about THEM over there who'd kill you" (I've heard that many times) and I say at heart they still want the same as most. Naive of me? No, I don't think so. It's the whole "them or us" mentality that's gotten us to where we are today.

Thing is I was this way even B4 the events of last year. This is the real SMT!

Lennon was right IMO...


True equality IMHO really would not be that hard to achieve 4 all......women, the races and on and on. Take some down & dirty but it is, like many things, doable.

"Perfect love casts out fear."

If we directed our efforts, minds and spirits toward receiving, cultivating within us and giving perfect (primarily meaning "mature" and "pure") love, then we truly all would be better for it.

 

[Hulamoon]

The recurring theme in Stephen King’s works! Humans as the ones to truly fear. I wish that wasn’t true, but it really can be the case.

Yep. Put me in a "haunted" house, and it ain't no ghosts leaping out of a basement storage cupboard that I would immediately worry about! National Parks - same thing. A sad destruction of what used to be such innocent pleasures. There's a lot of people living off the radar because they want to get away, but there's also a lot of people living off the radar because they needed to get away.

 

[FranC]

@LAwaters @Bronze @Opinionated and well everyone else…may I please I say something?

I am the new kid around here vs all of you as I recently moved into your neighborhood so I do hope my voice isn't taken the wrong way. But if they are please lets talk…all I ask. I am NOT trying to come off as preachy in any way or form or anything like that. Though perhaps one may read it that way but I have NO such intent.

On any forum I have been a part of, at times, it is truthfully hard to really get the temperature, or the vibe, others are trying to communicate. The honest meaning and/or intent (if any). This isn't like we would all be if we were face-to-face communicating. Therein lies the rub. If we were all together we would be getting that all so vital instant feedback which is crucial to all communications. We don't get that online. Although if we were facetiming I don't know that I would have liked you all to have seen that glob of toothpaste I had on my face this morning that I didn't notice for a bit!

On any forum it's so easy for misfires to happen because this is still a relatively new form of communication for all of us loony humans. We've all seen it and been a part of 'stuff'. I know I have (insert visual of SMT smacking himself upside the head). Each of us has been in 'that place'. But that's ok.

Communications. When my wife and I first met, first date, we talked for a long time about relationships and what works and what doesn't. Together we agreed solid honest communications must be the foundation for all to follow. Both of us worked hard to live that for almost 39 years until last year tomorrow when she met the Great Spirit. Communications isn't always pretty, man I know that all too well, but I also know it takes hard work and a willingness to get it right. That is where the reset button lies.

I do believe at heart we all want to get it right and I've learned that I usually get into big trouble when I think with my brain versus my heart.

Seriously we're all just human trying to make the best of what's on our plates and the grace of you know who knows exactly what is on each of our plates. We all got "stuff" and heaven knows we all have more baggage than at times we can carry…but the new day comes as fresh opportunity. So I say with love in heart, come on now, I've met some super beautiful people here and it saddens me when stuff like this happens. I understand 'stuff' happens and that's ok as long as we try again. Right?

Here is a beautiful loving song…it is each of us…listen to the lyrics, feel them. It's you and me together…or we fail as one and I refuse that option!!! There is just too much division nowadays. To some extent we are all guilty of this…we fail to speak up when we should…we look the other way and more…that is not love…it is not natural. We are more alike than we allow ourselves to believe.



Can you believe I first heard that on ESPN?!?!?
When my wife and I first heard this song we had tears flowing, not one or two, many.

I am Human and I am all emotions…powerful. Perfect? No f-ing way but I strive daily for better than yesterday. I look at life as learning…I am forever its student…first and foremost. Keeps me humble.

I look at things like this...when one fails, we all fail. I won't accept that. Thinking from the heart. Love.

I really hesitated to post this for some time. Then I thought "SMT this is you and how you feel" just do it!!!

Very nice

 

[Hulamoon]

Very nice

How are you doing Fran? And your daughter?

 

[FranC]

How are you doing Fran? And your daughter?

I'm doing ok,Hula Still hard to believe hubs is gone some days. My daughter has some serious health issues but she's doing ok too. Thanks for asking I know I haven't been very chatty lately but I've been lurking.

 

[MostlySunny]

I still need to go back and read the last few pages. I’ve been in overdrive (and feeling overwhelmed).

I will in fact need chemo. The tumor that they never knew was there is very aggressive. I’ll have 4 rounds of one chemo and 12 rounds of the other, this should take 20 weeks (could be longer depending on how I respond). I get a PET scan tomorrow to be sure it hasn’t spread anywhere else. Again, this particular tumor is sneaky, spreads micro tumors that are not always noticed in lymph nodes. If it has spread that’s an entirely different chemo plan.

So PeT scan tomorrow. Friday I have a MUGA scan (which is for my heart to make sure it can handle the heavy duty toxins coming it’s way). I’ll get my port placed the 9th, and start chemo the 13th.

My mom arrives Sunday. She’ll help with Sadies birthday (the 8th) and graduation the 11th. I’ll probably take her with me for wig shopping. I have been told I will lose my hair but I’m not cutting it till it starts falling out. They say 2-3 weeks after the first treatment.

So.. fingers crossed for a clear PET scan so we can proceed to getting this crap out of me.

Now I’ll go catch up you guys had a chatty couple of days!

 

[DavidOH]

Evening...

 

[Bunnykiller]

this was one of the wigs the wifey got when she had her chemo session...

and the LEDs blinked too...

 

[Bunnykiller]

Mornin All...

 

[DavidOH]

Morning.....

 

[kkay59]

Last night the rain started later than I thought. I got about 5" of rain, and it was a whole night of trouble. 3 pots of rain again. The first one filled up in half an hour. More heavy rain today. Maybe half of my backyard is now a river. I didn't sleep a wink last night. I added more items to my vehicle last night and this morning. I'm exhausted.

 

[Bronze]

Last night the rain started later than I thought. I got about 5" of rain, and it was a whole night of trouble. 3 pots of rain again. The first one filled up in half an hour. More heavy rain today. Maybe half of my backyard is now a river. I didn't sleep a wink last night. I added more items to my vehicle last night and this morning. I'm exhausted.

Get your swim suit and fins handy.

 

[MostlySunny]

this was one of the wigs the wifey got when she had her chemo session...

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and the LEDs blinked too...

Good for her! I’m not quite there yet, hopefully I’ll find some humor in this at some point!