Oooh it's so sweet and interesting looking. I did not buy one only because I finally found a silver relic Minikin V2, for a reasonable price. I was like, I didn't get birthday presents (Well, my husband brought me fake flowers! They make me so happy! I LOVE a plant you can DUST instead of water, man. I'm a nut job but the first time he bought me a fake flowers bouquet, I swooned. I have a bunch of red somethings. I'm putting them in my office along with the Virgin of Guadalupe candle I really need to BURN. I need her help.)
Also, my mom bought me THE COOLEST Virgin of Guadalupe painting ever. It's painted on bare wood, a round cut out. It was too expensive but she saw my yearning (my mom did) and got it anyway. LOL. I need to find it.
So yeah, well I was like "No one should have to have lived my life recently and not reward themselves somehow." So like, I got the Silver Relic and it's like one of the FIRST shiny purchase I actually don't feel bad about. I was like, "GO ME."
Only then I would feel bad about getting that. Fortunately most places seem to be like, out of the gunmetal. LOL it saved me. Also, like I don't need to buy TWO mods in a day. Etc.
Maybe after someone stabs someone with a PEN I can like, buy it, (it won't be me.)
I am thinking I may word my apology as "Dr. Evil, thank you so much for your kind offer to let me see patients in your area. My apology to you is letting the situation get so out of hand, I no longer trust you at all. I am very sorry about that and would love to get the "amends" part of this, which is where an apology turns into a PERMANENT BEHAVIORAL CHANGE. So, on both our parts, I would love to be able to trust you enough to enter your work area unaccompanied but I am very far away from being able to do so.
I do hope we can discuss some general principles over our lunch, such as the concepts of trust, adequately caring for patients, communication, moving forward etc. I do plan to be very truthful about my concerns and I imagine you would wish to do the same. Again, I hope we can discuss general principles, not specific solutions. I do feel that would best be done with both of our supervisors present and perhaps an HR representative. Because, I would like a PERMANENT BEHAVIORAL change in how we handle our various job tasks in a mutually beneficial way. I very much look forward to our lunch, and it certainly pains me to decline your kind offer. I don't want it to be something you regret and renege on later and I am afraid you may come to fee that way. I am very sorry that I must decline your offer at this time.
Is that mean? IDK.
Anna
I still miss her still like crazy, but I do know how much extra work you would've had to be doing to look after your lil four rugrats 
