I thought so and then there was that deeming podcast. Argh. I want another gallon of 100 mg nicotine and I'm guessing I should buy a mechanical. It took every ounce of my power not to go after the simply BEAUTIFUL mech that is in the classies right now, but I know I'm not really ready for a mech, so buying that one (it is a work of art) seems crazy when I know I can get something inexpensive for less.... But ATM I am feeling rather Good about my stockpile, and it will increase (without my own funds) by Christmas time.
Maybe-- I am not planning to visit my bio family this Christmas, mainly because I don't know if my kiddo's going back to jail or not and for how long, and I Upset My Mother Greatly, which usually happens at Christmastime, somehow. Sigh. She offered to visit with my sis and I was like, "That's great Mom, can you stagger it a bit so I actually get to spend time with my sis on my own, since we were kinda planning that anyway, we haven't seen each other in ages?"
That did not go over well. She stated her feelings were "hurt" and if my Mom mentions her feelings-- ever-- well, that's a big loss that takes time to recoup from. She ended up hanging up on me (that's my deal, usually!!!) interestingly, I am perhaps becoming more mature than my mom. I kept explaining, "No, I want to see YOU, too, I just would like some separate time with BOTH of you," but, sigh, eh, all my siblings (me included) just hate Christmas as my mom seems to see it as a time of mandatory family harmony and as such, makes it extraordinarily stressful.
That's OK, if I'm not traveling I can buy my own gifts, I mean, deeming necessities....
Anna