Aww Eskie, that sucks. I try to clean when I can and cook when I can, just because... You should.
I had this one year where I like maintained a "show house" I literally it was the kind of thing that like, you vacuumed and made sure all the magazines were show houses. I really think it actually was the result of THE MOST TRAUMATIC event of my life when my kid was almost STOLEN from me (by my own mother) but she did not realize that CPS was ah, DISPASSIONATE and did not take kindly to lies, and all I had was a Very Bad Med reaction I BEGGED my doctor to NOT do (I made him write a letter to CPS) and he did anyway. I would up in New Mexico and like, that wasn't good. Then I was in the psych unit for 6 weeks being tortured by a sadist, and I finally got transferred and the whole time I was freaking OUT because they almost sent him back to my EX and I was like to my mom "YOU WILL DIE IF THAT HAPPENS."
So when I got out I had this really good CPS worker she was new and she saw things clearly. We got our kiddo back insanely fast for AZ, like 8 months or something but we had all these parenting CPS classes and I could've pretty much run them but like had to be pretending to be all DV and downtrodden so I'd get good reports and the husband also had mucho classes and at the end of my case my CPS worker was like, "They did not have a case to begin with" which was SO TRUE.
I had a really hard time living across the street from my mom after that which is why I eventually moved. But I was on forced treatment of Depakote thanks to my doc, and it really made me, IDK, lose IQ points. I would get up, cook, clean the house, go for a walk with the dogs, go to an AA meeting, that was about it. I sort of needed that year to recalibrate, man. I CANNOT TELL you how TERRIFYING it is to watch your own parent NEGLECT your kid my mom was straight up like, "I will not take care of him like you do. I don't have the energy. I am tired. He doesn't need a charter school."
Then every time I would call the CPS worker and my mom would be like. "FINE. Charter it IS. STOP calling the CPS worker!!!!" And I would be like, "STOP like, NEGLECTING HIM then."
Seriously it was terrifying. They used inkblot tests to diagnose me and the husband with personality disorders, despite my saying to the psych evaluator. "You KNOW these are completely subjective they have no validity at ALL." Then she was like, "they have been redone." And I was like, "Listen I elevated the MMPI LIE scale on PURPOSE okay? (They're like these really dumb questions like, "Do you ever get mad at family or friends' and if you answer "Never" (dude especially during a CPS case when your MOM stole your kid) they know you are lying. SO dumb.) "But, I don't want you guys having ANY way to assess me it is none of your BUSINESS. YOU KNOW they don't work, that is why you are using them."
When I finally got them in the mail I burst into tears and called my lawyer (who was super good actually) to find out if I could get the kid BACK EVER. She was like, "OH no, these are great, I can work with THESE, no problem." It made me wonder what some other ones had (my IQ was still pretty stellar despite heh, the drugs) but one lady said her psych eval was like "You are unable to care for yourself, let alone children." OMG.
Anyway, the day the kid returned was the happiest of my life and I needed to be a housewife for a bit, to recover from the trauma of everything. It was necessary.
But what I MEANT to say was I got a Thor for like 20 bucks, the old one. I LOVE those mods, I was like "I don't need the new one and 20 is not much.
So yes, I shinied .But. it was chill. Also Walmart is done all my clothes are getting clean and goodness I don't know how it all happened but I was SUPER chill. 3 dudes hit on me at Walmart, too. I have NO CLUE why, either. I looked.... In my own opinion pretty rough.
Maybe I usually look okay but normally have my "Too much thyroid I will eat you face on." Perhaps.
LOL trying for an early night. Yoga a five tomorrow, whee
Anna