Most smokers have no idea how much nic is in a cigarette. They just kind of know what they "like." American Spirits (those sneaky natives) have "no additives" but also the highest concentration of freebase nicotine in any cigarette on the market. At least back before whomever bought them out. It wasn't an "additive" because it was made from part of the plant.
While nic plays a ROLE in addiction certainly that is not all of it. Not by far. I would not even PRESUME to know what and how cigarettes are addictive but I know (for me) like, MAOI-a and b played a huge role. When I was chewing nic gum and knitting feverishly for 6 months, I also wanted to like, claw everyone's eyes out. Like, REALLY.
Come to think, me an Mr. A fought a lot during that time period. I thought we were going through a rough patch at the time. Guess it was just me.
Oddly enough, I was mostly serene during the pregnancy and nursing, even though I wanted to smoke Every,.Damn. Day.
I sort of think it might have been the hormones, that and detoxing off every OTHER bad thing I was doing. But I was like, SERENE dude. I completely went to work every day and made sure I was well swaddled from the mutagen gels I ran every day and I was super careful.
LOL except for the day after the BABY SHOWER AT WORK. OMG I cried almost that ENTIRE DAY. But it was EPICALLY bad. My supervisor had to come over after about 5 hours and say sharply, "Anna I get it, it was a BAD DAY. You are at work now. Knock it OFF."
Oooh, I could still wring the ex's neck for that day. But that yea, and apart from the ONE cigarette I smoked at my dad's wedding (I flew in 8 months pregnant from the US and he was a complete TOOL I regret NOTHING when it came to that cigarette in fact it was the second best cigarette I ever smoked, and yes ,I do RANK them and it had a HAZE of glory over it.) Well, I was oddly serene.
I think my subconscious was keeping me busy going, "Anna look you are SOBER. Take a good hard look at your life, your associates, and your baby daddy. You are going to need this information later in order to LEAVE. Smoking is the least of your problems."
That, or it was some sort of miracle. I did drink one 8 oz can of diet pepsi after my lunch walk at work and if the kid wants to blame me for that.... Well he can go right ahead I guess .
Anna