500 some messages. Wow, I'm sure I missed a lot of shiny. I have been super AWOL of late. I'm glad I stocked up.
Yet another new event at my job, which has never happened before. I got written up. To be fair, I did miss some call outs in time, which apparently (per my employee handbook)) is one step up from being the devil. It's just hard to like call out when you set your alarm clock incorrectly and like, you don't wake up. So, I have not been doing that anymore and I am also doing the "sleep schedule" thing where you go to bed and get up at the same time, no matter what. It kind of sucks, because I am so stressed I wish I could be Snow White or Sleeping Beauty.
The wanted to give me the "humane" option of going to 0.8 time due to my "stress." Oh, and doctor appointments. I think they were upset when I pointed out a) that was not economically feasible, and b) I did not think it was fair to penalize me for doctor appointments to fix what their doctor had done, or reasonable and I was coming out the other side anyway..
Anywhoo. I think 6 months is like, excessive, but I mean, they can fire you after one occurrence whether you are on a performance improvement plan or not. So ,then I annoyed Head Guy by an assumption I made and well.... Things got sucky.
IDK why, but head doc wants me to complain about my doctor only it would be an internal complaint so like, the would have control of it is the only thing I can see. The last thing in the world I want is more risk assessment lady in my life, she already apparently wrote any possible horrible thing any of the adult docs said about me, which my head boss referenced. I did not think it was appropriate to reference frankly as we were talking about calling in not my overall being as human entity, I hate when head guy throws out those little "complements." He doesn't like it if you don't play dead, either. I emailed him asking how a risk manager's assessment had any bearing to the topic at hand. He did not appear to like it.
So, either they are being nice, or it's a Machiavellian plot to make sure I cannot sue them for evil doc, who knows. The husband and I decided selling our house under the circumstances was unwise, so he is going to hang out here and like be here for a while. I can't say I'm sorry either, he's like a backup alarm number 5.
Who knows with these people. In any case, like, I sent them a very polite email which said a) Thanks for the second chance, I do realize you could have fired me b) My husband and I feel selling the house would be unwise at this time, so it's not ingratitude the 4/5 schedule I really need the income, some other smarmy crap about being done with complaining because I was not gonna complain,, and oh, you missed a month on my performance improvement plan. (They did.)
My supervisor then emailed it was on purpose. I don't see it. The way it's written, they are actually giving me the month of May off with no need to call in. But whatever. I may not make it to May, the past week has not been fun. Here's hoping I stop feeling like big brother is looking over my shoulder.
Also, my supervisor sent out an email about "just the facts" in notes and not making them like 'psychotherapy'" notes. I know she meant me. Probably. I wrote a note and emailed her the info asking her to review it. Crickets. Then yesterday, I accidentally called her while cleaning out my voicemail box at like 6 something. She called me at 8 something saying she had a missed call from me, sort of in a panic. I hope it was one FOR me, and not about "how soon do I get the firing contract together" but I was like, "Oh no, I'm so sorry, l did not even like, think that call would show up I was just emptying out my VM." Then I asked her if she had gotten her email. Which was titled "EXTREMELY IMPORTANT." She was like, "The one about your plan? Yeah." was like, "No, the one where I asked you to review my note." (Her email also read,,"Shoudl you have questions, concerns, or comments do not hesitate to contact me.) She was like, "Oh yes! I didn't get to it yet, I have it highlighted in yellow so I get to it today."
It would LITERALLY take 5 minutes. Anyway, she didn't get to it today, she instead sent out, at the end of the day, this series of powerpoint-y things that looked absolutely dreadful and aske what we all thought about them. My husband is good at graphic design and so I thought they looked like total crap. I also wanted to email back, "I have highlighted them in yellow, so that I get to them tomorrow" but managed to restrain myself. I guess I just print emails and document. Oy.
IDK. Not feeling so shiny. I am coming to hate these people. I guess the good news is, it's like, mutual or whatev. But, I think it will be the dance of the Bumble bee or whatever that sign is called, where like I have to figure out if they are being kind and accommodating or like, they really just want to keep me in check/down until some statute of whatever runs out. I should probably start checking these things in my state and stuff. I would also need to FMLA out before I got fired. Yes I am rather stressed, thank you. LOL. Sorry for the core dump I just....
Well I have not been ordering vape stuff, let me put it that way. Adjusting to the husband's presence, etc. Sigh.
Anna