Andria, it took me the longest time and well after my girls left home to figure out no one was going to "eat off my floors"! Think I traumatized them too since every visit I make to their homes which are far away involves them cleaning for a week before I get there and they're exhausted.
I'm just glad she fell out with her previous housecleaner, so we got offered the job. It pays my VISA card bill. 
Thank you all for the kind words, means a lot. I'll keep them in mind
But the real truth is, I don't want to live without my husband, ever. I'd go NUTS without him! I know right. Two years ago, I was just a regular youth. I went to school in the morning, came back home at 5pm, procastinated every assignment and sat down playing games and looking all over for money to buy another carton of cigarettes at the local "corner store" (actually just a guy on the street selling cigs for half the price), and no other worries. How drastically ones whole life can be changed in such short time...still can't believe it. But I love my daugther and SO, and I do everything for them. Really focusing on my education at the moment being.Life has a way of smacking you in the face. Lots of wonderful folks here ready to give you a quick laugh, a kind or encouraging word and its just generally a safe space to just be you.
Take care of yourself ......Thinking of you
The chances of me outliving my husband are highly unlikely. His heart is in excellent condition and since I had a heart attack (no 1 killer of women) I have a lot of damage and three stents. Angina is a problem so I have sublingual nitro around at all times. Then I had cancer surgery back in 2013. I wear a medical alert necklace and take 14 medications a day!!! If I sound gleeful about this, it is just because the worse things get, the more I seem to handle stress by laughter! Maybe it's the endorphins?!? I dunno, but it helps me. I am even joining a laughter yoga class that I watched featured on PBS! Soon, I will be part of the Laughing Academy!!!!
If the worst happened and I outlived him, I'd get myself a helper monkey!!! And if I found myself in economic straights, I'd teach the filthy monkey to pick pockets!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What sleep deprivation can do...I need some sleep. My daughter is almost yhe same, can't sleep alone for a long time, has to sleep while we're holding her.
+ That she was 3,5 months premature and we slept at the hospital for 3 months, unsure whether she'd be alive or not when we came back home again. And having a SO with a very complicated chronic sickness, making it difficult for her to function every day in terms of jobs, house work etc.
On top of this, we're still in our teens trying to make everything go on wheels.
Most of our friends has "left us" and we're pretty much alone in this situation.
And vaping is one of the things which keeps me going.
Sorry for this long, personal post, hope no one got bothered
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Although im not married and don't have any kids, I feel just the same way. Feels like yesterday I was still in college, then realizing that was so many years ago... Really does suck when your life is based around a struggle.. Hang in there Bro!!I know right. Two years ago, I was just a regular youth. I went to school in the morning, came back home at 5pm, procastinated every assignment and sat down playing games and looking all over for money to buy another carton of cigarettes at the local "corner store" (actually just a guy on the street selling cigs for half the price), and no other worries. How drastically ones whole life can be changed in such short time...still can't believe it. But I love my daugther and SO, and I do everything for them. Really focusing on my education at the moment being.
Yes, that's what I like about this forum. I feel like I belong here. Thank you
