Tootle Puffers, Redux (The Sequel)

[Atchafalaya]

So I have a little update in this spoiler:

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So, my psychologist wanted to join me. I agreed since I already know her, this will be easier. She picked me up and drove me back home (she's so nice).

So we went there. I was scared to death, shaking, sweating, high pulse and all that. So I met them, two persons. One was norwegian, the other were that kind of really masculin lesbian, looked strict and was eastern european (not anything against, but in my experience they are quite rough and strict). But they were really nice and really wanting to help.

So we talked for two hours with a 15 min break inbetween. Mainly asking questions and talking a bit about my background.

After a lot of talk, she gave me some medicine to test out. Lipralex daily use and truxal if I feel really bad. I really hope they will help, even if it's just a liiittle bit. Severe depression and paranoid disorder + hallucinations was what they told me they were thinking. And I believe that is really correct. They were really understandable and it was good talking about it, even though I felt like I was losing my mind because of how I felt, scared, nervous, stressed, restless etc.. But all in all it was good, new appointment monday and they will also contact another part of the clinic to make a appointment there as well, where they are specialized in what I'm going through.

I feel burnt out now, talked about myself and things I've never talked to anyone. I will try and take a little nap before I collapse.

Cheers everyone


Vapez

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This is wonderful news sweetie! You're on the road to happy happy. I'm so happy and proud you took the step. It's a courageous step. Now, have some vape and pat yourself on the back for job well done.

 

[Rixsta]

The way it dances.

I dated a Russian girl for a year a loooooooong time ago, never been so drunk in all my life when I went to visit her family... How do you know if its Russian ?....It drinks a lot.

 

[Vapez]

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This is wonderful news sweetie! You're on the road to happy happy. I'm so happy and proud you took the step. It's a courageous step. Now, have some vape and pat yourself on the back for job well done.

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Thank you! Yes I really hope this is my way up again. I've crossed so many barriers the last couple of days. Going to lay back a little and vape. I'm exhausted.

When I took the bus early today, I had this feelings again I get when out. Everyone out there watching me and wanting to harm me. This time I "heard" the bus driver screaming at me. Yelling "hey you with the blue jacket". I felt he was going to kill me. I got so afraid and anxious I just had to go out and take the next

Vapez

 

[Rixsta]

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Thank you! Yes I really hope this is my way up again. I've crossed so many barriers the last couple of days. Going to lay back a little and vape. I'm exhausted.

When I took the bus early today, I had this feelings again I get when out. Everyone out there watching me and wanting to harm me. This time I "heard" the bus driver screaming at me. Yelling "hey you with the blue jacket". I felt he was going to kill me. I got so afraid and anxious I just had to go out and take the next

Vapez

When you have rested up a bit, will you think about what others have said and tell your girlfriend, she really needs to know and it's something you should be doing together, that's what a partnership / relationship is all about.

 

[Atchafalaya]

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Thank you! Yes I really hope this is my way up again. I've crossed so many barriers the last couple of days. Going to lay back a little and vape. I'm exhausted.

When I took the bus early today, I had this feelings again I get when out. Everyone out there watching me and wanting to harm me. This time I "heard" the bus driver screaming at me. Yelling "hey you with the blue jacket". I felt he was going to kill me. I got so afraid and anxious I just had to go out and take the next

Vapez

Are you getting 8 hours of sleep? When I had my son he wouldn't sleep more than an hour at a time. After a few days I started seeing and hearing all kinds of crazy things. Ants and snakes in bed with me. You see, you have to dream, whether awake or asleep. I'm not saying that's your problem. Just saying that not enough sleep can make it worse.

 

[Vapez]

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When you have rested up a bit, will you think about what others have said and tell your girlfriend, she really needs to know and it's something you should be doing together, that's what a partnership / relationship is all about.

I know. I talked about it with her yesterday, which was my plan. Was difficult (I have always had trouble talking about myself to anyone).

Are you getting 8 hours of sleep? When I had my son he wouldn't sleep more than an hour at a time. After a few days I started seeing and hearing all kinds of crazy things. Ants and snakes in bed with me. You see, you have to dream, whether awake or asleep. I'm not saying that's your problem. Just saying that not enough sleep can make it worse.

That's not what this is about. I've slept well the last weeks. My main issue is always feeling someone are out to hurt me, struggle going out, struggle being alone. Even a go on the balcony for a vape, freaks me out sometimes. Walking to the store or using a bus are living nightmares.

Vapez

 

[Rixsta]

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I know. I talked about it with her yesterday, which was my plan. Was difficult (I have always had trouble talking about myself to anyone).

That's not what this is about. I've slept well the last weeks. My main issue is always feeling someone are out to hurt me, struggle going out, struggle being alone. Even a go on the balcony for a vape, freaks me out sometimes. Walking to the store or using a bus are living nightmares.

Vapez

Ah, missed that sorry, glad you did anyways

 

[3mg Meniere]

Congratulations, Vapez. The first step is the hardest.

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It may take a while for the meds to kick in. Be patient.

 

[sorrynomore]

So I have a little update in this spoiler:


Vapez

I'm glad you've taken that first step Vapez!
Best of Luck to you.

 

[LJFinFLA]

@Vapez

Hang in there buddy!!

 

[DavidOck]

So I have a little update in this spoiler:

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So, my psychologist wanted to join me. I agreed since I already know her, this will be easier. She picked me up and drove me back home (she's so nice).

So we went there. I was scared to death, shaking, sweating, high pulse and all that. So I met them, two persons. One was norwegian, the other were that kind of really masculin lesbian, looked strict and was eastern european (not anything against, but in my experience they are quite rough and strict). But they were really nice and really wanting to help.

So we talked for two hours with a 15 min break inbetween. Mainly asking questions and talking a bit about my background.

After a lot of talk, she gave me some medicine to test out. Lipralex daily use and truxal if I feel really bad. I really hope they will help, even if it's just a liiittle bit. Severe depression and paranoid disorder + hallucinations was what they told me they were thinking. And I believe that is really correct. They were really understandable and it was good talking about it, even though I felt like I was losing my mind because of how I felt, scared, nervous, stressed, restless etc.. But all in all it was good, new appointment monday and they will also contact another part of the clinic to make a appointment there as well, where they are specialized in what I'm going through.

I feel burnt out now, talked about myself and things I've never talked to anyone. I will try and take a little nap before I collapse.

Cheers everyone

Vapez

Good for you! And glad you did bring your SO into the loop!

 

[Vapez]

Congratulations, Vapez. The first step is the hardest.

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It may take a while for the meds to kick in. Be patient.

I'm glad you've taken that first step Vapez!
Best of Luck to you.

@Vapez

Hang in there buddy!!

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Thank you all, means a lot

Yes, I know they will take time to kick im. They can take their time as long as there is a possobility that they can help me on the way to a better life. I'm patient..

Vapez

 

[Muru]

Scary stuff @Vapez ! No wonder it freaks you out. But you know what? Most people with paranoid disorder or schizophrenia lock themselves up and don't look for help. You are so incredibly brave to go out, even though it scares the hell out of you, and get help.
You rock!!

 

[MikeyConti]

Good work Vapez!

 

[Vapez]

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Well, I was on the subway today. I was already really scared, felt like someone was going to murder me, but didn't know who. I was super stressed.I felt nauseous. I was standing. Den it got worse, I saw an extreme white light, sound and vision faded away and then I woke up, two stations later, people were trying to save me. I didn't understand a thing and when I managed to get up, I walked out of the subway, but I was not myself. I called my brother to come help me get to his place as it was nearby. But I was so "gone" I bare knew where I was, struggling with balance. He found me and got me up in his apartment. This is two hours ago and I'm finally coming to my senses again

Vapez

 

[3mg Meniere]

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Severe panic attack. Have you reported it to your Dr./counselor?

 

[Maytwin]

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Well, I was on the subway today. I was already really scared, felt like someone was going to murder me, but didn't know who. I was super stressed.I felt nauseous. I was standing. Den it got worse, I saw an extreme white light, sound and vision faded away and then I woke up, two stations later, people were trying to save me. I didn't understand a thing and when I managed to get up, I walked out of the subway, but I was not myself. I called my brother to come help me get to his place as it was nearby. But I was so "gone" I bare knew where I was, struggling with balance. He found me and got me up in his apartment. This is two hours ago and I'm finally coming to my senses again

Vapez

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I do hope you're feeling better now - have you been able to speak with your doctors about this, or been checked over at all ? The 3 or 4 times through my life when I've fainted or nearly fainted I've had that white light/sound and vision fading out kind of experience - not nice at all.

 

[fourthrok]

You are only saying that because you have never seen them on the beach adorning an old man (no age required) with a geriatric body. Trust me it is not a good look.

We have plenty of those here in Florida, I assure you!

 

[Robert Cromwell]

We have plenty of those here in Florida, I assure you!

Yep remember seeing old men in checkered shorts with dress socks, wingtips and sock garters on in the malls...
Up here it is people in jammies and such in Wal Mart...

I did like the good looking women in bikinis in the grocery stores though

 

[fourthrok]

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I do hope you're feeling better now - have you been able to speak with your doctors about this, or been checked over at all ? The 3 or 4 times through my life when I've fainted or nearly fainted I've had that white light/sound and vision fading out kind of experience - not nice at all.

I'm sorry...I can't "like" that....but I feel for you and do care.