I agree. I have to keep my mental shield up 24/7 in my own home. I come here feeling like it's not needed so much, & I can relax & actually breathe. This entire month has been one crisis after another & I am not thru it yet. I reached mental blocker overload the other night & handled it the only way I felt like I could for the moment, so that I didn't have to cut myself off from the Porch. I'm not leaving the Porches unless it's to protect others from my own issues, some of which were triggered at the time by what was going on. I have an infusion to get thru today, followed by several days of steriod junk during a celebration & family time that I look forward to with great excitment from year to year. I'm really trying to hang onto that. So yes. As much as I hate to do it, blocking happened, & continues for the moment, just so I can have one, quiet, peaceful, enjoyable place to spend some time with people I love being with. Unblocking will also happen. But not today.